Two steps remain ( Read more... )

Ive been so tired recently. No time for anything. I think im getting a lateral promotion soon. YAY ( Read more... )

It did happen a few weeks ago. It has been so interesting. All I had to do was reachout and there it was. I finally see why humans are social. I never realized how many friends I had at my fingertip. I was driving the other day and I had a smile on my face. Im happy. Im actually happy, and I alone. But its ok. I Cannot believe it. Its been ( Read more... )

Why is it somthings are just impossible to forget. Especially the ones you love. True love never falters. We only tell ourselves it does.

I woke up about 2 weeks ago on a Monday. Somthing was different. I was ok. I have been. Im finally back and its finally over.

I wish my mom were still here.

The angels in my soul won tonight. But the war in my head rages on......

I did things recently that go completely against everything I completly believe in. These things were out of character for me. I am sorry. I had to. I want to hate myself. I want her to hate me. I will explain why soon. Very soon. Its almost over. I am almost there. Soon I will get there. I will get my shell. Then I will know peace.

Like a fool I stare out of the window, all by myself. Out of this window I see another window. A window to the world. I love it when we move the time forward. It gives me another hour in the afternoon to see the sun and sand. I love the smell of the pacific when the wind blows. The seaweed the life, the world that lives on the pillars under ( Read more... )

The sun was bright today and the air was still. WHenever I come back here I feel like I step back into another life. An old life. I never pictured myself where I am. Losing her was never part of the plan ( Read more... )