I can't handle this crap anymore!!!!!!!!!!! I'm freakin cryin as I type this I can't believe of how much I have worked for stuff and how it never works out!!!!!!!!!!! softball was the last thing I had and now its fuckin gone I tried so hard to prove I deserved to be there and focused so hard on my pitching becuase of amy being out that now I'm ( Read more... )

Why am I so different ( Read more... )

Today ever since the second I walked into the school doors my hearts been pounding. I haven't been able to think bout school at all. I was just thinking about the game after school- And once I got there it got worse my heart was pounding so hard my head hurt and my chest. I was so nervous because I didn't want to let my team down. I wanted to help ( Read more... )

I haven't written in this thing for awhile and I guess life is alright. Nothing big has happened I guess lol on whatever day it was lol monday I think I had my first varsity game and we won :-) so kinda memorable but I screwed up so bad on a running situation lol but I'm not write bout it lol its kinda embarrassing and life goes on lol ( Read more... )

Today wasn't badd since it was a friday. It was alright I guess. Some quizzes I took I think I passed which I need before report cards ( Read more... )

Softball my fav sport started today....

School was whatever nothin happened there but for softball I went and played with jv instead of varsity....I was a lil bummed b/c it was like my first varsity game and all that but it didn't turn out bad. Well when it started it was funny cause I'm not used to like kinda leading....lol when we counted omg I ( Read more... )

ugh I just hate this day-I'm not even gonna write about it I'm just gonna try and put it behind me....I can't wait to leave this city I can't wait to graduate I can't wait for a change....

well today started pretty good. When I woke up I was sooooo out of it. When I got to practice I was like out of it lol I'm sure so people saw that. I hope I didn't seem to be mad or nething I was just out if it so sorry if I was lol but neways we just threw some and got that pain in the butt fence lol me and danielle got so sick of that thing at ( Read more... )

I just realized how cool everyone elses journals are and mine is gay...lol whatever I'll just deal ( Read more... )

Well today isn't baddd just a usual Saturday I guess ( Read more... )