i'm so mad at myself for being kelsey's friend for so long. I got so used to her treating me like shit.. i didn't even notice it anymore. BUT I DO NOW. I hate her so much I wouldn't give a shit if she died. She is such a bitch next time I see her if she says one fucking word to me i'm going to kick that skinny bitchs ass. I swear to god i'm never ( Read more... )

Kelsey is the biggest bitch ever.

UGGGHHHHHH i'm so mad right now. people are so fucking mean!!!!! seriously what the hell is up with everyone. i need to get out of charlotte. i want to go to med school in florida and that is what i'm going to end up doing since everyone here is so fucked up and mean. even the drugged up losers are mean!!!! nobody wants me here anyway i'm so sick ( Read more... )

I had a dream the other night.. zak and I were just laying down talking and laughing. It just doesn't seem like he's really gone. I wish this all was a bad dream and I could just wake up to see him wearing the necklace braclet thing that i always played with I got it for his birthday since his last one broke, wearing the belt that I always clicked ( Read more... )

so life sucks. chelsea and dan are pretty much my only friends right now. just because i stopped doing drugs doesn't mean i should loose all of my friends :( i hate my life so much. i'm trying really hard to be happy, but there isn't much to smile about. i'm just going to keep missing people. i miss zak,shawn,and lauren. i wish i could go back in ( Read more... )

I wish I was with you more than anything right now. I miss you so much, you are all I think about. I keep replaying that friday night in my head. I wish I would of chased after you. I wish I wouldn't have told you I would call you back. I wish I was with you zak. I wanna be where you are.

i'm so stupid. anyone that i've ever cared about has fucked me over.

seriously, I don't see a point in this anymore.

god i miss him. i wish more than anything things could go back to how they were. me, james, kelsey, and zak hanging out everyday. we did everything together. we were all so happy.

since like alot of people are dying and stuff... sorry to be morbid, but just incase i die soon i want oasis- champagne supernova played at my funeral. thanks that would be great. i look at my previous entries about zak. i can picture those days perfectly. i can remember every single detail. i wish he wouldn't have lied to me about doing drugs. he ( Read more... )

well... after my boyfriend commiting suicide, being stuck in a mental hospital, diagnosed with bipolar disorder, loosing my best guy friend, and being completely off drugs. I can finally say i'm happy again. I've gone to the dmv finally. I got a job at razzoos cajun cafe with my two best friends and i'm soon going to be taking my college placement ( Read more... )