there's a spiritual war going on about me. It's making me physically sick, and my soul is in tatters. I keep fighting it, but I come out dry. I'm beginning to think in the mess i make, not even God himself could love me ( Read more... )

I wish satan would keep his grubby little claws off of me.

good thing I have jesus fighting for me.

Sure I've always wanted Jesus to come back and get us. But not before i could get married, fall in love, have sex, or be on my own.

i think that this is a milestone for me. the first time in my life i could say it, and fully mean it.

Jesus, I'm ready to come home.

i guess lately i've been doing this sporratic crying thing ( Read more... )

God has some things to tell me.
He started today.

I give and give and give.
you're oh so good at taking away.

It was a straight-faced lie i believed.

grrr. RAWR! grrr. RAWR! grrrrrr RAWWWWWWWWWWWR!

i believe it wasnt all that long ago that we were walking around town, or we first got our drivers liscense and would drive to ames for 'real' fun, or were sitting in anna's pool house talking about which one of us out of the four of us would be the first to get married, or cruising around webster city getting threatened by mean smoking girls, or ( Read more... )

well if this is goodbye, i'd walk away less of a person.