"why would anyone cheat on their pregnant girlfriend?! how could he look me in the eye and lie to me and say he didn't cheat on me and that he loved me?" <-- you know, this is exactly what happened to me. word for word. i can say that you never get over it entirely, but the sting subsides eventually. unfortunately, it happens to the best of us. and you have to stop thinking that YOU'RE not good enough, because you know damn well that you are. i bet you catered to his every need. hes the one that isn't, and will never be, good enough. a MAN doesn't leave his kid high and dry. i cant imagine what you're going through on that point, but i know that you are all the mother and father that bb girl needs. you have so much love to give, and i'm glad that she gets all of it.
and just be persistent with the job thing. i know you will find something. restaurants are always hiring and its easy money, always. anyway, i love you! and remember that you are a lot stronger than you think you are. youre the one that taught me how to be,
yeah, i knooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow. but it's just so super hard right now. it's not like i really get any relief from my thoughts as i'm home 99.9% of the time. just seems like anytime i invest feelings/emotions/time into people all they do is shit on me. and you know me, i love a little too hard and i can't help that. i don't want to turn into some cynical downer, but it's a lot easier to put the wall back up than to continuously being hurt. it doesn't just involve captain douchebag, but family and friends alike. it's like no matter what i do for anyone, it's never good enough.
ugh, idk. i just need to take my kid and run away .. which sounds like an awesome idea that i should look into.
hey girl, i know i don't know you in real life, but what i do know from reading your lj is that you are a strong and amazing person who deserves all the best in life! i know how easy it is to beat yourself up over jerks and how hard it is to see positives when you're in such a situation, but somanybacon is right - you are all the mother&father your baby needs. sometimes it seems like the whole world is against you, i know it does for me, but there does come a point where GOOD things will happen - usually when you least expect it. it's easy to say forget about this guy and move on but it takes more than just words. plus it must be so much harder when you've got a child. i know you'll get through this and come out stronger in the end. always remember you're a good person and you have a beautiful little girl who will always look up to you and love you unconditionally. i hope things work out for you soon, you deserve it! also you're not a failure for needing or asking for help. take care xoxo
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"why would anyone cheat on their pregnant girlfriend?! how could he look me in the eye and lie to me and say he didn't cheat on me and that he loved me?" <-- you know, this is exactly what happened to me. word for word. i can say that you never get over it entirely, but the sting subsides eventually. unfortunately, it happens to the best of us. and you have to stop thinking that YOU'RE not good enough, because you know damn well that you are. i bet you catered to his every need. hes the one that isn't, and will never be, good enough. a MAN doesn't leave his kid high and dry. i cant imagine what you're going through on that point, but i know that you are all the mother and father that bb girl needs. you have so much love to give, and i'm glad that she gets all of it.
and just be persistent with the job thing. i know you will find something. restaurants are always hiring and its easy money, always. anyway, i love you! and remember that you are a lot stronger than you think you are. youre the one that taught me how to be,
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ugh, idk. i just need to take my kid and run away .. which sounds like an awesome idea that i should look into.
thank you bacon, for everything.
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ps. i've missed reading ur lj!!
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i feel a LOT better these days .. how are you? i'd love to catch up. you on FB?
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