I'm so fucking angry and hurt and angry and OCDing and sad and fucked right now...I don't even know where to begin. But that is nothing new. I am at this house alone. I don't want to be here alone. I want to be near people. So bad. I feel like I have no one. I constantly feel like I have no one. I have gone through life thinking I have no one. And ( Read more... )

I have to stop my antidepressant cold turkey. It is causing me health problems...that normally don't occur with the medication, but with me, naturally, it is. I had to go to urgent care yesterday. I still have to get more blood work done. Blah ( Read more... )

I am back in Ohio. Unsure of how to feel about it. Pirate is sleeping at the foot of my bed with his head resting on my feet. Ophelia, my first and new kitty, is sleeping with my brother tonight. Pirate and her seem to be getting along, but he is about 60 times her size, and I don't want her to get hurt so I figured tonight I will sleep with my dog ( Read more... )

....at times ( Read more... )

Today on my way home I put into my GPS Hollywood. Then I put Los Angeles as the city. And I picked Hollywood Park Parking. It is 2,673 miles from where I was. I seriously considered filling up my tank of gas, and leaving ( Read more... )

I want to go swimming. Be outside.

This morning I woke up, tired. Big surprise. I'm always tired. Especially in the morning. I hate morning. Well. I went to CUA, and saw about 8-10 news vans with huge satellites on each of the trailers. Preparing for the big pope day. Snipers will be at our school. I am avoiding CUA at all costs. I am going to Virginia tomorrow to see my boyfriend, ( Read more... )

I always hate the beginning of the end of the semester. This semester I have no exams...which is a wonderful wonderful gift, but right now I have a lot going on. I'm stressing, and I am also sick. I don't really want to leave from my bed. In a lot of pain. Fuck UTIs and kidneys ( Read more... )

I don't update this very often. I'm alive. Happy...for the most part. A lot has been going on. I'm staying here for the summer. Living with Cat and Nick which will be amazing. I have a boyfriend who I happen to think is wonderful. And kind. I'm excited to not be in Ohio for the summer. I love my family but honestly...it just doesn't feel like home ( Read more... )

I say I will
But I never do

:(