Do you ever feel like, you keep trying to do something, and every time you try to do whatever you are trying to do, it ends up not working, you mess it up somehow. Like by falling asleep every time. Or doing something dumb...saying something dumb. It's not even so much that, but more like the wrong timing. Timing is so important.

So, I have decided to let Shakespeare inspire me this year, and I have decided I am going to be a nymph for Halloween. Pictures will be posted once the costume is complete ( Read more... )

Ok. Time to bitch time. About a lot. First of all, I'm broken about theatre. I am not acting this semester, although, I was under the impression I was going to be. I didn't audition for the mainstage show, because I wanted to work with Jay, who I worked with last year, and really enjoyed working with him and the cast on Ubu Uphill. He told us all ( Read more... )

I really enjoy living off campus, except I feel like I have isolated myself off from what I am so used to...being on campus. I feel like I haven't really been working on trying to see people, and I really should start doing that. I just feel so far away from everything...I really need to get out of this goddamn house though, as much as I love it ( Read more... )

I am disgusted with the people I consider closest. The people I consider my best friends in the world…I devote so much of myself to them. But, I feel so abandoned. I feel like I try so hard. These people mean EVERYTHING to me, and I feel as though I am nothing but an afterthought in their precious lives. I suppose I sound a little bitter, and in a ( Read more... )

Homesick. I don't know if that's the right word though ( Read more... )

So I haven't been online much...because my house doesn't have internet yet. Comcast is a big piece of shit. Anyway, I'm going to California this week to see the festival I worked this summer on, but I would love to have people over and hang out with everyone I haven't seen once I get back. These first two weeks have been a little fucking crazy for ( Read more... )

I have to escape. I feel like I have no one. I take everything so seriously sometimes. I miss so many places, so many people...so many times. This isn't where I want to be in life, and I don't know how to not be here.

Why do men have the power to make you feel so fucking inadequate?

So, my time here is coming to an end. Tomorrow is my last day of work. This summer has been wonderful...so much has happened, but I suppose some things are better left unsaid, especially on here. I am coming out in the not too distant future, however. I am flying here with my friend Kristi who I met here, my mom and her sister September 5. I am ( Read more... )