i cant even begin to imagine what holidays are going to bed like. what its going to be like to go over to her house and not see her in her bedroom. what its going to be like every time i look at jared and see her face in his. what its going to be like seeing photographs of all of us together with her. shes not here anymore and i cant and dont want ( Read more... )

I went to the liquor store yesterday and knocked down an entire case of little bottles of liqour. What an asshole, lol. Today, went to the liquor store again with mal, dan, and chris and we went in a "DO NOT ENTER" way. We're just asking to get caught, I tell you haha. Spent $117.35 (haha good thing it wasn't myyyy money lol ( Read more... )

I've been neglecting my journal...tisk tisk. I've been getting anxiety attacks up the wazoo lately and I don't get it. Well I do get it but wtf, I hate dealing with it. It happened last semester too, right before finals. All this shit builds up and I get nervous and I have so much stress right now it's insane. There's soo much work for me to do ( Read more... )

The Yankees lost to the Red Sox today 3-7 but it's ok because they won the last two games. Uhmm it is so beautiful out today and it puts everyone in a good mood and I just love it. It's like 60 degrees right now. Perfect day. Perfect temperature. :)

Summer vacacation count - 37 days
California count - 43
Cape Cod count - 51 *Can't wait - sooo ( Read more... )

Put it in your mouth

My baby left me,
Left me sad and blue
I didn’t know what to do...
Without my baby baby baby baby
And then I met his best friend
And he took me to his house
And I said... I said...
let me tell you what I said

Put it in my mouth ( Read more... )

So before I left he said he likes me. Or so that's what I'm told. It's weird what only a couple days in Mattituck can do to a freshman in college. Anyways, I'm back at Bryant and I love it SO much. I feel like I let out a huge breath the second I entered New England. So we got here around 11:30 this morning and campus was DEAD...completely empty, ( Read more... )

I've got about 4 hours of sleep the past 2 days. ugh, lol. Last night I drove out Brianna, Chrissy, Maggie, Jess, Garrett and Mary. We went to Bay & Main in G-po. Kinda weird at first, then kinda fun, then kinda weird again but all in all a good night. Saw some hotties...but definitely can't wait to get back to Bryant for some New England hotties ( Read more... )

Looks like I'm drivin out tonight. Good thing I didn't wash/clean my car today, lol. One bad thing about being home, I smell like smoke again. My jackets, bag, hair, clothes - everything, smell's like smoke and I hate it. Now my car is going to smell like it too, that's definitely something I didn't miss one bit. Last night was so much fun. I'm ( Read more... )

I need to figure out who I am. I thought I already knew myself and was sure of myself, but sometimes I feel like I don't really know. Like, who am I as a person? I guess I'm still young and that's what these years are for...finding out who you really are and, well, trying not to be afraid of it. Sometimes I scare myself at how mature and grown up I ( Read more... )

I can't believe it's already thursday. I feel like I just came home and I kept thinking this week was gonna go by sooo slow but surprisingly it has gone by fast. That's a good thing, haha. I can't wait to get back to Bryant, yay. I miss my girls and boys. Me and Christine have been planning out what we're gonna do for next weekend already. haha I ( Read more... )