I keep trying to look at things positively and i try to get all excited about things but can't. I've been trying to somewhat trick my mind into being happy. The only way i can smile is if i'm doing something that makes me forget everything. The boat used to be my escape but that's been ruined for me forever. The Funeral yesterday made me think ( Read more... )

Vacation is boring, i want to go back to school. With all this free time i've been thinking to much again...back to over analyzing. blah. At least i've been dancing a lot, god I love to dance. I wish I had my Cyndi Lauper record so i could dance with that to, but alas travy still has it. He sure is taking his time bringing my stuff back...whatever ( Read more... )

my goodness i love my sisters. Lindsay you've made so many days brighter.

I got a lovely suit jacket today for my prom. Me and Lindsay are going to be the sexiest couple there. I can't wait.

neither of us were wearing helmets
And our blood was just everywhere
And when the morphine kicked in later
The censors threw their hands up in despair
And that's when the truth came marching in
And promptly pulled the plug
But you were better than any drug
You were better than any drug

this falling out of love is some tricky buisness, i fall more for him with every word we share. Talking to him makes me smile from ear to ear...i miss him.

Get well soon young grasshopper, then hop on over.

Finally we talked. I feel so much better. I'm glad we're still friends. Now i just need to figure out how to fall out of love with him.

He hurt me more than I can put into words. He just fell right out of love with me. I'll talk to anyone who will listen to me because I’m trying to overcompensate for what he won't say. I know he says that he needs his space, but I had no idea that he didn't ever intend on coming back to me. He's found someone better who he has a "special connection ( Read more... )

i'm so afraid that i'm going to lose him. why did i have to do everything so wrong?

good god that took forever. Me and trav are finally back in puppet land, i'm just frustrated that it took so long. i love that boy very much. Thank you mike and veronica you both helped so much.