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[smileygirl90]

So today I realized how much of the problems i have in my life could have easily been avoided by one small thing. And, while that doesn't excuse me doing everything that i've done (i'm still responsible for how my life turned out), it does frustrate me, to know that basically, because of one chance coincidence, i have all these stupid issues. Had

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[blazing_ice]

you're not going to go to hell because you lied to people, skipped and drank, etc. the only way you can actually go to hell is denying God and/or enjoying sinning while telling God that you're sorry. I'm sure you don't enjoy lying. I mean, you probably don't go up to bed and pray "i'm so sorry for lying!" when you're thinking "what should my next evil lie be? neeeehahahteeeee.."

maybe it happened for a reason. maybe you needed all of this stuff to happen so that you could realize that you don't need him to be who you really want to be. I don't think this situation being avoided would have really elongated your relationship with Adam. I mean, maybe i'm just being a party pooper, but you're not a stick-to-one-guy-for-a-year-and-a-freaking-half-in-high-school!!!! type of girl. (a.k.a. morgan, who i love very much, but can be highly agrivated by)

so, all in all, i think that this coincidence is going to make you angry, understandable, but it's already happened. don't hark on the past, make the future better.

i love you!

[smileygirl90]

i didn't actually do the thing w/ morgan, i just thought about it which is why i put that in there. i don't enjoy lying, but i certainly don't try very hard to stop myself from it. there are even somethings that i know i will lie about, even as i'm apologizing for all of my sins. i don't know where that puts me on the heaven or hell scale, but i'm pretty sure it's not good.

[blazing_ice]

trust me, you are a wonderful person. we all make mistakes and we all have our faults. that doesn't mean you're going to hell! you do so many good things that the bad things are overshadowed (or crossed out, as the pickle did to the donut!)
it's not something you need worry about at the moment. you'll find your way :)

[wileymouse]

well, if people went to hell for sinning, we'd all be there, m'dear.

I don't know what your "coincidence" is, and frankly, I don't really need to know, but maybe you have made bad choices and done things that you regret. But (i'm still responsible for how my life turned out) your life hasn't exactly "turned out" yet. You can change your life right now, instead of worrying about you has passed. I know I'm a hypocrite for saying it, but seriously, you're blaming yourself too much, and blaming never did much good.

[smileygirl90]

you always sound so grown up in your comments :) if i didn't know any better, i'd think you were an adult, instead of a freshmen. But that's a good thing, and thank you :)

[laurebekimizzle]

you are a wild child! lol. really though. i know you believe that acts get you into heaven, but i believe faith gets you into heaven. as long as you accept Jesus as your savior, you're in!
as far as drama and boys, it's a highschool/teenage thing. i feel like somehow we must go through it in order to fully understand why some of it is wrong and not have to go through it later. idk what you've been through, but i can certainly imagine.
just hang in there. everything is going to be ok, as long as you stay with us. i promise.
and i love you.

[smileygirl90]

I miss talking to you! You totally made me feel so much better! i love you!!