buh?

[smilr]

I think I need perspective. This is a good/bad list.

Good:

• I have free room and board. A halfway remodeled garage-cum-bedroom isn't the warmest, nor most comfortable - but very appreciated.
• My roommate is my best friend from here at home - we get along great.
• I have positive income.
• I have a working f*ing computer monitor, and all of my computers available to me at once, which for several months was NOT the case.
• I've seen some of my extended family for the first time in nearly a year at this thanksgiving.
• I'm *really damn close* to a bachelors degree in Computer Science. I believe I'm finally financially stable enough to finish it!
• I'm home in a sense. I grew up here - and this town is very familiar.
• I own furniture again! The first piece of furniture I owned was that huge plywood desk I had my senior year of college. Which I left in Illinois. Now I have a dresser, a comfy chair, and an ottoman!

Bad:

• My boss is a complete moron. Yes, everyone dislike's a boss at some point, but few have one whose ignorance, lack of critical reasoning skills, and general apathy are so pronounced that such are the DIRECT reasons for 80% + of the employees under her direction to quit.
• My job is a deadend retail position.
• My job is actively PICKETED by members of my community on a daily basis - I don't discuss it with any of my extended family :(
• I have roughly $370 / Month in student loans.
• I've started actively missing physical companionship. It's snuggling season after all.
• I have very little social life in this town - there is nothing to do _at all_ here. Dating possibilities = zero.
• A patch of skin on my left foot has inexplicably gone numb for the past few days. I don't know why - this worries me.
• I'm sure I have a cavity, but no dental insurance, so no dentists for me. Additionally, my old dentist just died last month from bone cancer - and he was too cool for it to end like that.
• My Grandfather died while I was stuck in Illinois - I have yet to visit his grave or really grieve for him, it still feels unreal still.

So yeah, it's not all doom and gloom. Hopefully this will motivate me to get off my ass, as a good majority of the things on the bad list can be fixed by getting my damn bachelors, a better job, and a spine.