butterflies and the elephant ears.

[smith_sucks_it]

none of my old friends are in my life anymore,we've grown apart, with one exception. i've changed but most everyone seems to have managed to stay the same. i don't know any of you really anymore. i'm alone, in a nutshell. i used to be able to tell half of you how i felt and you cared. now we don't even have enough conversation to make small talk about mere things such as the weather or school work. there are a handful of people. genuinely concerned. for the rest of the people that call me emo, tell me to stop being so down on myself, tell me i have no reason to feel the way i feel and that i should be happy. screw you. walk one week in my shoes. then tell me how you feel. i'll give you my thoughts. show me how you react. it's a good thing you say that though i suppose. it means i'm hiding it well. and the only reason i hide it, is because i know you'll judge me over it. spread rumors, lies, betray me, because this is highschool and you can't trust anyone. get real bitches. im sick of this two faced crap.

p.s. thank you derek salter for giving me rides home. i was not about to make this the first year of ever riding the bus. screw that. i appreciate it!