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can't take baby steps towards a goal that isn't there

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coulda, woulda, shoulda
I'm trying to cut those out.

small steps

untill later. see if i can take any more steps tonight

updated my site a little but www.rockydawson.com isn't working at the moment for some reason so if you want you can go to rockydawson.bizland.com. go to gallery and then self portraits

but then again. the whole site looks like its messed up right now. they were doing some kind of updates last night. maybe theyre not done yet

well i was going to post some pictues but it seems my server is updating things and i can't get into my site. they weren't all that great anyway. wrong setting on the camera. damn digital. but other than the weird color breakdown, i like them. maybe i'll try again tomorrow.

went to a different bar with makingbelieve to see my girl working for her first night of bartending. it was fun even though i didn't get to talk to her much. but meg got to see me be all goofy. she said she got good feelings from the meeting. thats good. now i just have to sit here the rest of the night and think.

in backwards order that they happened, not necessarily in importance

realizing she makes me feel like I'm 17 and trying to ask for a date and just feeling appreciated for being there

playing catch football with makingbelieve in the hall and her room

getting a photo job for tomorrow to shoot some orphans

all in all a pretty good day i'd say

its friday night/saturday morning and all is right with the world. well maybe not ALL all but things are looking up or i'm just overly hopefull. either way, its better than feeling depressed

especially around me. it just makes me want to fix what ever is wrong. and then when she can't/won't tell me what it is, that just makes me hurt then. will i ever know? what can i do? i guess it doesn't matter what i say now. you don't see this.

well that sucked. for everyone else, just ignore me. i'm just thinking

a guy came the store earlier to start to set up for a new credit card service and i'd have to say, if you get the chance, i mean a really good look, check out a comb over. they're pretty funny