Here's the deal: I've been feeling irregularly happy about myself lately. I'm not sure what it was that made me feel this way. Oh, wait, yes I do. It was the drinking binge on St. Patrick's Day with Peter and Buckingham. I never would have thought a drunken late-night heart-to-heart would sort out all my issues, but it really did. I'm not sure ( Read more... )

It's always hard to delete a facet of your life. It's not easy. It never will be. Every piece that you inevitably throw to the dogs tears a certain piece away from you. The past always seems to be double-edged. They always say that time will heal all wounds. It doesn't--but, it helps. The most important thing, though, is you. In the end, ( Read more... )

On October 29, 2004, I got my life handed to me--sent back to the kitchen because it was too cold. As a master chef for this particular dish, I was obviously quite hurt. Some chefs are even so offended as to kill themselves over something as trivial as a bad dish. Now, I'm not saying that I am, in actuality, a master chef...although I am no ( Read more... )

I even sang for her. Which is something I never do for anyone...ever. It's hard to believe that I could throw away all shame, just to sing her a song. Just to express how I was feeling in a deeper tone. There are things that I did for her that I just couldn't do...in public...and sometimes, in private. But, with her, I had an uncanny ( Read more... )

There was a time when I was happy with my life, when I could smile, simply because I was in love. What could it matter that my life was not filled with social obligations and family functions? I was in love! It was the greatest feeling in the world. It felt like the world just melted away. Like I was somebody, like my life was going somewhere ( Read more... )

How can I find the light in my life when I am always drawn to the darkness? My life, my legacy, is not spectacular. Everyone can read the story of my life and realize that it was mediocre and boring. But, how many of them have found a love beyond words? One that transcends space and time? My life, my love is my legacy. She completed me into a ( Read more... )

Of all the beings in the world
She is beyond the realm of words
Her ultimate nature, pure and true,
Is like the infinity of space

See the stone set in your eyes ( Read more... )

Actors are talking props.

What can a flame remember? If it remembers a little less than is necessary, it goes out; if it remembers a little more than is necessary, it goes out. If only it could teach us, while it burns, to remember correctly.