aww shucks, freud was right.
if any of you care... i just figured out while reading my favourite book; Ella Enchanted, that i have a cinderella complex... or princess complex. not the oh i'm not going to do any work princess but the other one, the one you want emanate. like many girls i grew up on disney movies and fairy tales (and some doctor suess) this has an impact on me as a child, and according to freud... this has affected me, and i only just realized this. bah, last night i was discussing my idealism with derek... and he asked what the point was and i couldn't give a sufficent answer, but my idealism i believe developed from all these happy ending stories with true love, adventure, good vs. evil blah blah... who wouldn't want that? so somewhere in my unconscious/ subconscious (they're the same btw) i hold this picture in my head trying to make it come true, i could never figure out why i wanted to go live in a castle in whales... long family story. yup so now all i need to do is marry prince william (like everyone else) and i have my prince... hopefully he's charming. ;D