Something is different...

[smonion]

I'm not sure how it started or why but there is a profound difference in my thought process from the usual. I tend to dwell in an either/or world of 'it's all my fault, I'm the cause of the wolrd's problems' or complete vitimization and powerlessness. It's rather refreshing to realize that I'm not omnipotent nor am I without sway in the world. Even

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[shimmerdance]

That's so wonderful, honey!!!! It's a great step toward power over depression, as much as can be, anyway. Knowing that you have control makes a world of difference, more than anything else i can think of. For me, the worst part of depression is the overwhelming helplessness that i feel. I can't even imagine diggning myself out of the abyss (whatever the abyss of the month is... financial, the horrid mess that is my home, the non-existent state of my love life.... I could go on... But the knowledge that I'm in control, when I finally FEEL it, rather than just 'know' it, is the thing that gives me the ability to move. I am so glad for you that you've found that place, and I hope it gives you wonderful gifts.

love,
roxanne