Sometimes i feel like that too... like i'm always trying to latch onto my past to try to bring back something that once made me happy. It sucks. You just have to surround yourself with new things to try to fill the hole...you hear me?
Do you like coffee? Hahah... You should come up to my work sometime and chill and talk to me.
yea, I do the same thing. Like this summer for instance. It rocked. there were so many ppl in my life that I now dont talk to or arent as close with, and I used to see them every day.
You understand what I am saying but i was more talking about the people I hung out 5+ years ago. It's probly becouse we are all diffrent people now than we were then. Some of them are making their lives better, mainly the ones I still hang out with, and others are runeing their lives with drugs. Maybe it's not strange that I hardly hang out with them anymore. I could still go to their place and be welcome, but's it's like I don't want to be around all the powders and the weirdo's they are around. I still invite them to parties but they normally don't show up. What pisses me off most is when i hear about them staying up for like 4 days stright but then they allways make excuses about why they can't come party with me. maybe it is time for me to move on with my life. Not that I haven't been doing that. In the last 2 years I have made a bunch of good new friends. I have started to go to college which I am doing good at. I have begon to spin at more and more parties. I have begone to write music even though I have had no formal training (
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I find myself doing that a lot, too. My best friend since the 7th grade and I just recently stopped being friends about 2 months ago because we both changed into such different people. It seems like after high school, everyone starts to grow up a little more and evolve as people. And with that comes change. Which inevitably leads to drifting away to people that you thought you'd be friends with for life... I don't really have anyone that I go everwhere with either. I just tag along with Robin sometimes. But I know what you mean... it would be nice. Just try to make the best of things.
Yea i am allways trying to make the best out of life. This post probly came off as me being depressed, but it's more I'm trying to look inside myself to see where I am going and what I am leaving behind. Maybe it's good that I don't have someone I am allways with, that could just mean I have more room for diversity? I dunno though, I'm tired of going every where alone and it doesn't feel good to think of myself as a loner.
I'm not shure where all this is comming from. I think I started to feel this way after me and tish seperated. It's not like we were going out all that long but I guess I got to feel what it was like to have a 'side kick'. Someone allways wanting to meet up when were apart. It's not just a girl friend I'm talking about though. It's like I have never had a 'side kick'.
I dunno but I got to go finish community service... I'll add more to my deep thoughts later. Maybe if I keep writing about them they will begin to make sence.
brandon, i completely relate. it seems i feel that way a lot,too. i think of people i've been friends with since i was 14(i'm almost 24) and all the stuff i did.i don't have any friends now that i've known since high school except marita.and we didn't hang out in high school. she was too cool.(i'll explain later.ha.)and i don't have anyone i go everywhere with either(except robin) but you know,it's not the same as a homeboy,right? even people i've been friends with from the "scene",i don't hang out with as much as we used to. the only reason i go to parties w/ anyone is cuz i have robin.so i understand,man. i'm down to hang out with you.i think you're cool as hell,and so does robin. problem is,till july it's got to be around school full time and work full time.heh. weekends!!!!!! but yeah.i'm feelin ya.later bro.you know the numbers.
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Do you like coffee? Hahah... You should come up to my work sometime and chill and talk to me.
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Like this summer for instance.
It rocked.
there were so many ppl in my life that I now dont talk to or arent as close with, and I used to see them every day.
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I don't really have anyone that I go everwhere with either. I just tag along with Robin sometimes. But I know what you mean... it would be nice. Just try to make the best of things.
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I'm not shure where all this is comming from. I think I started to feel this way after me and tish seperated. It's not like we were going out all that long but I guess I got to feel what it was like to have a 'side kick'. Someone allways wanting to meet up when were apart. It's not just a girl friend I'm talking about though. It's like I have never had a 'side kick'.
I dunno but I got to go finish community service... I'll add more to my deep thoughts later. Maybe if I keep writing about them they will begin to make sence.
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i completely relate. it seems i feel that way a lot,too. i think of people i've been friends with since i was 14(i'm almost 24) and all the stuff i did.i don't have any friends now that i've known since high school except marita.and we didn't hang out in high school. she was too cool.(i'll explain later.ha.)and i don't have anyone i go everywhere with either(except robin) but you know,it's not the same as a homeboy,right? even people i've been friends with from the "scene",i don't hang out with as much as we used to. the only reason i go to parties w/ anyone is cuz i have robin.so i understand,man. i'm down to hang out with you.i think you're cool as hell,and so does robin. problem is,till july it's got to be around school full time and work full time.heh. weekends!!!!!! but yeah.i'm feelin ya.later bro.you know the numbers.
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