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since i havent really had an update of substance since a while back, i think ill take a few and slap some shit down.
speaking of shit going down, this post is gonna contain ranting and raving and probally the pissing off of several individuals, but i really don't care. if you think you might get offended, don't read
so much shit has gone down, i dont know where to fucking start. first off, im sick of being the adult in my own house. im tired of being stressed over all the little shit that a 17 y/o shouldnt be stressing over. maybe it's me that cant handle anything when stuff doent go my way. im tired of taking care of everyone, and i am so sick of feeling guilty when i do shit i want to do, it's not like i ever do a whole lot. i havent gotten a chance to be a damn teenager. big deal, who cares. i wish i didnt have to put up with it.
im sick of a few "friends", who are too lost in their own self-pity to ask you how you are. you know it amazes me how you can be best friends with someone one week, and they bring a bunch of problems on themselves, and then the next week they dont even speak to you. it's funny actually, and i have nothing to lose. i've lost nothing, i know who my friends are. it's the rest of em that need to worry about who's not gonna be there for them anymore. this drama is sickening, it's pathetic, and people need to grow up. get over yourself.
and im also tired of seeing my friend's pages overloaded with comment whores saying shit about deleting everyone because they dont comment enough. please. what the fuck is the point in that? i dont write because i want to get people's reactions to what i say, i write because i need to get shit out of my head. it annoys me, so if you dont want me to read your journal because i dont comment, fucking delete me. if i respect your writing enough to leave you something, cool. if not, fuck off.
*breathe*
i finally met derek last week. he amazes me, i dont know why, or how, or if i even like it. all i know is he's a great person and im better off knowing him. we'd be cute as fuck together, i think, but if nothing comes of us, im cool with it. his band [negative process] is playing at 1470's on march 26th, and everyone needs to show up because they fucking kick ass. i dont know how to feel about him, because he has a girlfriend. i know how i shouldnt feel, but im feeling it anyway. i guess only time will tell. if you have something positive to say about all this, enlighten me. if not, keep it to yourself. i know what im gonna do, and im not worried about it.
and i definatly just contradicted myself.
so lets just say that everything annoys me these days, im starting to see people for who they really are, and some of them are real assholes. that's life, you'll have that, i know.
im doubting whether or not getting the fuck out of this place is going to do any good.
im not pissed off, i just needed to get some of this stuff out. nothing has really come out how i wanted it to, but i think the whole idea of everything is here.
with that said, im going to bed.
speaking of shit going down, this post is gonna contain ranting and raving and probally the pissing off of several individuals, but i really don't care. if you think you might get offended, don't read
so much shit has gone down, i dont know where to fucking start. first off, im sick of being the adult in my own house. im tired of being stressed over all the little shit that a 17 y/o shouldnt be stressing over. maybe it's me that cant handle anything when stuff doent go my way. im tired of taking care of everyone, and i am so sick of feeling guilty when i do shit i want to do, it's not like i ever do a whole lot. i havent gotten a chance to be a damn teenager. big deal, who cares. i wish i didnt have to put up with it.
im sick of a few "friends", who are too lost in their own self-pity to ask you how you are. you know it amazes me how you can be best friends with someone one week, and they bring a bunch of problems on themselves, and then the next week they dont even speak to you. it's funny actually, and i have nothing to lose. i've lost nothing, i know who my friends are. it's the rest of em that need to worry about who's not gonna be there for them anymore. this drama is sickening, it's pathetic, and people need to grow up. get over yourself.
and im also tired of seeing my friend's pages overloaded with comment whores saying shit about deleting everyone because they dont comment enough. please. what the fuck is the point in that? i dont write because i want to get people's reactions to what i say, i write because i need to get shit out of my head. it annoys me, so if you dont want me to read your journal because i dont comment, fucking delete me. if i respect your writing enough to leave you something, cool. if not, fuck off.
*breathe*
i finally met derek last week. he amazes me, i dont know why, or how, or if i even like it. all i know is he's a great person and im better off knowing him. we'd be cute as fuck together, i think, but if nothing comes of us, im cool with it. his band [negative process] is playing at 1470's on march 26th, and everyone needs to show up because they fucking kick ass. i dont know how to feel about him, because he has a girlfriend. i know how i shouldnt feel, but im feeling it anyway. i guess only time will tell. if you have something positive to say about all this, enlighten me. if not, keep it to yourself. i know what im gonna do, and im not worried about it.
and i definatly just contradicted myself.
so lets just say that everything annoys me these days, im starting to see people for who they really are, and some of them are real assholes. that's life, you'll have that, i know.
im doubting whether or not getting the fuck out of this place is going to do any good.
im not pissed off, i just needed to get some of this stuff out. nothing has really come out how i wanted it to, but i think the whole idea of everything is here.
with that said, im going to bed.