WORLD? GO CLIMB A TREE OR SOMETHING.
You always have low points.
When you feel you are un-important.
That's what I'm in at the moment.
Most people would tell you to perk up and stay positive and all will return but what is there left to be positive about?
You do something for someone. It's under appreciated,
Someone does something for you, you do your best to make them feel great about it. But they don't do they same for you.
You spend hours of time doing something for someone and they just don't give a fucking shit about it.
Then then you get pissy they tell you to calm down or you are over reacting.
CALM DOWN? FUCKING CALM THE FUCK DOWN? OVER REACTING?
No. I don't calm down.
I've been told that several times today.
I always wear a happy mask. I always play the game. But you don't know what's hidden underneath. Oh-no-no-no. But you don't bother to ask because you have your own problems.
Well you know what? Good for fucking you. Because I wouldn't tell you anyway because I've learnt that anything spreads when you tell people and it sucks because then you know who you can trust and can't.
Main problems right now are:
-Under-appreciation
-Keeping Secrets and having to where a mask all the time.
I do my best to keep your secrets. Yes I do. I don't go bitch to EVERYONE about you but you do about me.
Several people I'm talking about here but I'm tired of wearing a fucking mask.
You know what else I'm tired of? Having my face rubbed in other peoples good scores.
What you say "Oh no, It's so bad I don't know how a got top mark!"
What you want to hear "No, no really it's so good."
Well I'm bored if anyone does that I'm just gonna be blunt and say "Okay if that's how you feel" because seriously everyone does it. Even I do! But that's gonna stop!
I'M FUCKING BORED OF IT!
I'm bored of the people in my life who just can't accept things, Deal with your own fucking problems. Don't put them on my fucking shoulders to deal with! I have enough. If you continually do this then you are going to be nowhere when you grow up. Because maybe I won't be there when you need a rock.
I'm sick of being a rock. It gives me a headache about how many peoples problems I have to deal with along with mine!
GO AND CLIMB A TREE OR SOMETHING. LEARN HOW TO DEAL.
Stop pestering me! Stop Under-appreciating me! I am not just some fly that you can brush off. I am a person to you know. I'm not just here on earth to help you I have my own path and right now you are obstructing my path.
AGH! STOP THE WORLD AND LET ME GET OFF BECAUSE I'M FUCKING BORED I JUST WANT TO HIDE FROM ALL THE DRAMA.
I know what you are thinking "If you can't deal with the drama of life you are gonna fail at life."
I deal with the drama of life! I always have! I always let it out by talking to myself but sometimes it just doesn't work!
I'VE TRIED EVERYTHING BUT THIS.
I'm PISSED AT SEVERAL PEOPLE.
Who do all 3 of these things EVERYDAY and it's fucking annoying because I'm the rock.
Well you know what? I'm not gonna be your rock any more. Go find another one because I'm all you have. You can't stand on your own two feet.
Yes, go on. Go fail at life.
I don't care.
Don't tell me to fucking calm down. This is not just an off day. I'm done. I'm moving out.
Oh don't worry Jazzy's fine! NO I'M FUCKING NOT.
I try to be an optimist but it's hard sometimes.
AGH.