Comments | smothee420: Sick of the bullshit

smothee420

Sick of the bullshit

Dec 10, 2002 16:27

Shit needs to just fucking chill. Can't even go to school and have a good day. Maybe I should start being a straight up prick like EVERYBODY in that fucking school. People just need to not talk to people and leave it at that. I am not letting my last high school years be ruined by stupid ass shit. Why try to piss people off and ruin their day or ( Read more... )

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um in case you havent noticed... dreamangel3799 December 10 2002, 14:42:36 UTC

you already are a prick to us.
you walk with jamie in the hall.. and
you walk right by us.. im not sayin you
have to stop and talk we dont ask that..
but you dont even fukin acknowledge us..
its like none of us ever mattered to you.
a simple hi would be nice.
we know ur happy now and thats cool.
but try not to forget who has been there
and who has cared throughout everything.
this is not meant to sound bitchy at all.. i
just dont know if you realize what you are
doing to everyone. it hurts everyone to think
that now you have jamie back you dont need
anyone else.. like we were just replacements
until you got her back. maybe thats not how
it is but thats how it feels.

~Meaghan

Re: um in case you havent noticed... smothee420 December 11 2002, 12:16:11 UTC

I know where your coming from and completely understand. I can't even explain things right now. I just have to see if this is right maybe its a mistake maybe not, but at one time is was something I cared about more then myself. I am in love with her and theres nothing I can do about it, maybe I just want thing to bad, but either way this will prove if things are right. I try saying hi to you guys in the hall when I can, I just feel weird when you guys don't get along ya know? You guys matter more then you would ever imagine, theres no way I could thank any of you enough. No I won't just drop you guys like that. I have barely done anything this past week besides sleep because I am sick, I even called i to work for the first time, twice, I have taken a nap 3 days in a row now and i don't ever take naps. i dunno I am sorry for what I have been doing, I am just trying to figure things out and trying to balance them out at the same time...but its not working...I am doing something wrong. I'm sorry again.

anonymous December 10 2002, 17:00:59 UTC

Everyone just needs to let him be happy

pototrash December 10 2002, 17:39:27 UTC

D...taylor here
A big part of why we didnt like her is you.
Now that you and her are cool u could give two shits about us.
Everyone of us was there for you at some point or another.
I thought you werent like that.
I never saw you doing this.
whatever tho your happy.
Thats all that matters to you right?

hey smothee420 December 11 2002, 12:21:01 UTC

taylor...I know I am a big part of the reason, and I am sorry. I care about you guys more then you think. I would do anything for any of you at any time. I know it upsets you and I am sorry, I don't want to fuck things up but I am, I am trying not to but I have to do this for me I have to prove things to myself. I am just so confused....I love you taylor thank you for everything!

D

i agree. anonymous December 12 2002, 06:37:31 UTC

There in love.
:)

loveyou both.
-Michelle-

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rockprincess December 10 2002, 19:31:53 UTC

ditto to what meaghan and taylor have said.
hey, you wanna be back with jamie...that's your choice and thats straight...but dont blow off everyone who was there for you when she was being a bitch and treating you like shit.
and dont tell us not to talk shit and all that.
beause you know how we all feel about her.
and why is it that it was all okay when you hated her...?
it was okay when you were talking mad shit about her.
and when you were telling me you'd pay me to kick her ass.
but now that you're with her again...we have to shut up?
thats crap and you know it, jd.

like i said...you wanna be with her, thats your issue.
as long as you're happy.
that's what we want.
but dont not acknowledge us, and dont tell us what to do when about a week ago you were doing the same damn thing.
think about it.

dreamangel3799 December 11 2002, 06:30:07 UTC

well said andrea.

Andrea smothee420 December 11 2002, 12:23:54 UTC

I don't mean to do any of this and again I apologize its just hard to figure things out with all of this going on, ya know. I don't even know the thoughts going through my head right now, I am so fucked in the head at this point I don't know what to do. I love you cotter! Thank you for everything as well.

Re: Andrea rockprincess December 11 2002, 14:28:47 UTC

i love you too, jd! just be careful. and don't push us away. because we need you just as much as you need us. we're all a little mad at whats going on now, but shit happens, i guess. i hope you get everything figured out. dont want ya going crazy on us...hahah. good luck.
and we're all here for you.

it goes both ways... kails2416 December 10 2002, 20:34:55 UTC

JD ( ... )

Re: it goes both ways... smothee420 December 11 2002, 12:27:38 UTC

I know none of these comments are meant to be bitchy at all, I understand you guys are hurt and it hurts me to know what I am doing. I am trying to balance things out but at the same time figure things out. I wis I could just explain, but I can't. I can't even explain things to myself. love you kaleigh Thank you for always being here.

D

hmmm... trojangirl December 12 2002, 11:04:36 UTC

you say the same shit.
it still hurtz.
..you've changed..
i miss..the real you.