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ok so i know that this is my second entry in the morning
but it was needed...
So I was sitting here.
Completely upset.
I couldn’t even see the screen because of the tears…
And I was waiting for it to pour.
And I realized…
I miss the way things used to be.
At OLL everything was easier.
And I can remember everything so clearly.
I have some of the best memories there.
And some of the worst.
I remember in 7th grade.
The night where a group of us helped Mr. R set up for open house.
Or catholic schools week.
Whichever it was.
And we played truth or dare with people.
And I remember a little while after that.
My ‘best friend’ told the guy I liked at the time something that I had said.
About him.
It was a terrible day.
But that boy tried to make me feel better.
And he actually talked to me about it.
I remember that I had the biggest crush on him
And I always wanted to be with him
That never happened
We drifted apart
Never to talk again
Then one year I see him again
Randomly
And I feel those butterflies again
And I know that there’s still something there for him
And I still cant get over it
I see him quite a lot now
And I know he sees me
But I don’t have the guts to talk to him
I miss the old days
Of just sitting around during lunch
Talking to the ‘group’
And knowing I had great friends
What happened
We all drifted apart
Never to be the same
Even after we left….
OLL was a comfort zone.
Confirmation.
Reatreat.
The best retreat I’ve been on
(I have gone on kairos yet)
I talked to an old friend
That I missed a lot
(still do)
And we still had that connection
It felt like it was all going to be alright
That I was going to talk to them again
That never happened
I miss you
You’re so close to me
But so far
Why can’t things be like they used to
Simple
Goodbye I love you
Don't forget to take
Your list of reasons
And the heart I did not break
Let alone split open
Let alone live in
Perhaps a deep blue bruise will mark
The place where I have been
And the sun will still rise
Tomorrow so will I
And I'll wave as I say
Goodbye I love you baby
goodbye I love you baby
Good luck I missed you
Before you'd even gone
The voice of wisdom
Saw to it I was forewarned
That the hands of fate that guided
You here to my side
Would pull you back and onwards
No matter how I tried
And the sun will still rise
Tomorrow so will I
And I'll wave as I say
Goodbye I love you baby
goodbye I love you baby
As I lay these future dreams to rest
I bury hem with seeds of
hope for happiness
Goodbye I love you
Don't forget to take
Your list of reasons
And the heart I did not break
thank you to KT and Christina who were there.
and the first ones to know
but it was needed...
So I was sitting here.
Completely upset.
I couldn’t even see the screen because of the tears…
And I was waiting for it to pour.
And I realized…
I miss the way things used to be.
At OLL everything was easier.
And I can remember everything so clearly.
I have some of the best memories there.
And some of the worst.
I remember in 7th grade.
The night where a group of us helped Mr. R set up for open house.
Or catholic schools week.
Whichever it was.
And we played truth or dare with people.
And I remember a little while after that.
My ‘best friend’ told the guy I liked at the time something that I had said.
About him.
It was a terrible day.
But that boy tried to make me feel better.
And he actually talked to me about it.
I remember that I had the biggest crush on him
And I always wanted to be with him
That never happened
We drifted apart
Never to talk again
Then one year I see him again
Randomly
And I feel those butterflies again
And I know that there’s still something there for him
And I still cant get over it
I see him quite a lot now
And I know he sees me
But I don’t have the guts to talk to him
I miss the old days
Of just sitting around during lunch
Talking to the ‘group’
And knowing I had great friends
What happened
We all drifted apart
Never to be the same
Even after we left….
OLL was a comfort zone.
Confirmation.
Reatreat.
The best retreat I’ve been on
(I have gone on kairos yet)
I talked to an old friend
That I missed a lot
(still do)
And we still had that connection
It felt like it was all going to be alright
That I was going to talk to them again
That never happened
I miss you
You’re so close to me
But so far
Why can’t things be like they used to
Simple
Goodbye I love you
Don't forget to take
Your list of reasons
And the heart I did not break
Let alone split open
Let alone live in
Perhaps a deep blue bruise will mark
The place where I have been
And the sun will still rise
Tomorrow so will I
And I'll wave as I say
Goodbye I love you baby
goodbye I love you baby
Good luck I missed you
Before you'd even gone
The voice of wisdom
Saw to it I was forewarned
That the hands of fate that guided
You here to my side
Would pull you back and onwards
No matter how I tried
And the sun will still rise
Tomorrow so will I
And I'll wave as I say
Goodbye I love you baby
goodbye I love you baby
As I lay these future dreams to rest
I bury hem with seeds of
hope for happiness
Goodbye I love you
Don't forget to take
Your list of reasons
And the heart I did not break
thank you to KT and Christina who were there.
and the first ones to know