well im feeling a little better about the whole brian situation. i talked to him last night and he said that he didnt know trisha was gonna be there and when i got there he got really excited cause i was gonna save him and then when i left he got mad. and i was like yea mad cause i didnt get rid of her not cause u didnt get to see me...and he was ( Read more... )

well i thought that i felt better about the whole brian and me situation but yea i totally dont. like lsat night he told me that he wasnt ignoring me nemore and everyting was cool. well then today i told him i was gonna go by his work and he said to come by at 5:45 so i did. well i get there and his ex trisha is there. well i like wanna die. i get ( Read more... )

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well once again im as confused as ever. when brian called me last night he told me he had been drinking but he seemed pretty there and everything. it kinda bothered me though cause he never has had that tone of voice with me before and i dont like it comming from him. well when he said that about not having a reason to be mad at me i was really ( Read more... )

sometimes i want to tell god to stop the world cause i want to get off. this weekend would be one of those times. i made a big mistake with brian. i really hurt his feelings and as much as i want to go back and fix it i cant. and i started to notice that since i made that comment he acted totally different. well last night i was supposed to go to ( Read more... )

i want to be with ryan.

omg sometimes i really wish that i never met holly. i mean seriuosly she gets soooo pissed cause i have other shit to do. i seriously think that she is pissed cause im not stuck up her ass anymore like i used to be in high school. just cause i made new friends and everything she thinks that im this big changed person and everything. BULLSHIT. she ( Read more... )

i havent wrote in here in awhile. its been a slow week. i got a phone call from joel on sunday night and he was bawling. i went and got him and he stayed at my house for the night ( Read more... )

it has been a been awhole since i wrote in here. im not used to not having shit in here all the time. blah ( Read more... )

today seemed like it lasted forever! first off i went to work at Kokomo Family Care at 8 this morning. i ended up comming home early cause i felt like shit. then i didnt even go to class cause i still felt like crap. i went and saw brian at work and spilt my slushi alllll over that whole office. it sucked ( Read more... )