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I haven't PACKED ANYTHING. *panics* I was supposed to take this time at my folks to pack my stuff for the Big Move, and I've done nothing but write and draw. Granted, it's only natural, considering I do none of those things when I'm at his house. But STILL. I need to get my arse in gear, or else I'll procrastinate until next year. And that's one thing I DON'T want to do.
Must. Pack.
And the discouraging thing is that I am a terrible pack rat and have around a billion things to sift through. I must come to terms with the idea that I will have to throw things away. I can't bring four car loads of stuff to his appartment, we won't have room to move.
It's just deciding what goes and what stays that's going to be an absolute nightmare. Ugh. *clings* This'll be my first time away from home. I'm ready, god knows I'm READY, but I'm still a bit light-headed by the notion that I will not be with my parents, that I will actually be with HIM, taking care of KIDS, learning to COOK (oh GOD! Me! Cook! The horror!), having to compromise about computer time, about television time, about ... I'm READY. I'm just slightly horrified sometimes.
Thanks. I needed to vent. I feel better. I'm not panicking anymore, which is a blessing. I can drive downtown now, when driving to the corner store used to lure me into a hyperventilating frenzy just five months ago. I've changed a lot, and I refuse to believe it's because of medication. He's been a rock, a wonderful and supportive driving force in my life. And we fit so well together, sometimes it's scary.
Alright. I'm done airing out my soul. It felt good. :)
Now for fannish stuff:
o - Finish the icons;
o - Finish the next chapter for le Lion au Serpent;
o - Write more of the Tower fic;
o - Finish the Post Mortem series;
o - Update my webpage;
o - Take down the Knockturn Ruins pages;
o - Take time to tell my friends I appreciate them, even in my absence;
o - Spend more time with Cybele_san
o - Finish my series on Elves (Elrond, (Legolas and (Haldir to begin with);
o - Breathe
o - Take time to figure out what else needs to be done.
:)