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For anyone who even still looks... along update.
Life has been a battle of ups and downs.
Half the time I don't know what to do or say. Let me state...this horrible fact for all of those younger then me...cherish your female body now, one you hit anything close to perimenopause...hang on tight! Life as you knew it will change in ways you would never EVER comprehend.
On that note, I don't know who to talk to anymore. Most women when you mention the evil "M" word like to inform you how young they are. Lets state here...it can happen young too....I don't consider that at 36 when I now realize I was having beginning signs, to be old. I am only 42 now, and the doctors still tell me I am TOO young. WTF is all I gotta say. Ever since my last visit with a FEMALE doctor (everyone said they are better then men...)my body has been on a spiraling down fall to hell. I went in with all my symptoms, told her the tests I took...yadda yadda. First she informs me I need to walk a lot more, need to drink only soy and asked IF my anger issues started when I started home schooling my boys. Again I say WTF? I can't stop gaining weight...shit I can eat ice cubes and gain weight. She refused to test my hormones or to test my thyroid. I walked out of there feeling like a fat cow that needed to be shot and killed. OH yeah, she also told me to quit eating fast food, and watch less TV!? Again I say WTF? I looked at her and said IF...IF I eat it, its once a month at most. I explained my friggin garden and how I enjoyed gardening with my kids. Evidently she assumes home school moms are just fat cows that eat fast food and watch tv all day. I don't do either....*sigh.
Hubby and I have our ups and downs. The down side is we are still not in counseling and some how it has become MY fault. A we can't afford it and what have "I" done to fix it...have "I" read books etc.??? In a round about way he told me he wishes I could just forgive and forget. In which I informed him forgiving happened the first time...forgetting never, and forgiving the second time...well...what am I supposed to do?
The oldest has yet to move out, THAT is causing major issues in my marriage. I want him gone...but he lost another friggin job in December, this time it looks like he is screwed due to how he was fired. Love that boy..but he is a dumb ass. Lets just say because he never EVER paid attention in school and sucked so bad at English he pretty much wrote an explanation of a situation he was involved in using the WRONG words that basically implicated himself. IDIOT
Home schooling this year is going so well. The boys are overall happy and learning and no tears. Last year was just hell...with most days me calling M to tell him I quit. This year has been a joy, and the boys are doing so well. I still can't get over I taught DJ how to read...and write and now with his math...egads he is so smart. C is doing great too, really grasping multiplication and division. His love of reading though is astounding. He consumes books like only I have seen his father do, and he LOVES history. He loves Abraham Lincoln so much...so very, very much he knows more about him then anyone I know. I am also shocked that he has handed me back all the kids bibles and asked for an adult study bible. So he now has his very own...and he is just loving it.
Oh, now to add to our two dogs, two cats, fish...we are getting two male baby rats in about two weeks. I can NOT wait...they will be the boys pets...and I can't wait. This is not going over well with M, but he promised two years ago they could have a rat...I just made it two. =)
Well if you made it this far...congrats.
Life has been a battle of ups and downs.
Half the time I don't know what to do or say. Let me state...this horrible fact for all of those younger then me...cherish your female body now, one you hit anything close to perimenopause...hang on tight! Life as you knew it will change in ways you would never EVER comprehend.
On that note, I don't know who to talk to anymore. Most women when you mention the evil "M" word like to inform you how young they are. Lets state here...it can happen young too....I don't consider that at 36 when I now realize I was having beginning signs, to be old. I am only 42 now, and the doctors still tell me I am TOO young. WTF is all I gotta say. Ever since my last visit with a FEMALE doctor (everyone said they are better then men...)my body has been on a spiraling down fall to hell. I went in with all my symptoms, told her the tests I took...yadda yadda. First she informs me I need to walk a lot more, need to drink only soy and asked IF my anger issues started when I started home schooling my boys. Again I say WTF? I can't stop gaining weight...shit I can eat ice cubes and gain weight. She refused to test my hormones or to test my thyroid. I walked out of there feeling like a fat cow that needed to be shot and killed. OH yeah, she also told me to quit eating fast food, and watch less TV!? Again I say WTF? I looked at her and said IF...IF I eat it, its once a month at most. I explained my friggin garden and how I enjoyed gardening with my kids. Evidently she assumes home school moms are just fat cows that eat fast food and watch tv all day. I don't do either....*sigh.
Hubby and I have our ups and downs. The down side is we are still not in counseling and some how it has become MY fault. A we can't afford it and what have "I" done to fix it...have "I" read books etc.??? In a round about way he told me he wishes I could just forgive and forget. In which I informed him forgiving happened the first time...forgetting never, and forgiving the second time...well...what am I supposed to do?
The oldest has yet to move out, THAT is causing major issues in my marriage. I want him gone...but he lost another friggin job in December, this time it looks like he is screwed due to how he was fired. Love that boy..but he is a dumb ass. Lets just say because he never EVER paid attention in school and sucked so bad at English he pretty much wrote an explanation of a situation he was involved in using the WRONG words that basically implicated himself. IDIOT
Home schooling this year is going so well. The boys are overall happy and learning and no tears. Last year was just hell...with most days me calling M to tell him I quit. This year has been a joy, and the boys are doing so well. I still can't get over I taught DJ how to read...and write and now with his math...egads he is so smart. C is doing great too, really grasping multiplication and division. His love of reading though is astounding. He consumes books like only I have seen his father do, and he LOVES history. He loves Abraham Lincoln so much...so very, very much he knows more about him then anyone I know. I am also shocked that he has handed me back all the kids bibles and asked for an adult study bible. So he now has his very own...and he is just loving it.
Oh, now to add to our two dogs, two cats, fish...we are getting two male baby rats in about two weeks. I can NOT wait...they will be the boys pets...and I can't wait. This is not going over well with M, but he promised two years ago they could have a rat...I just made it two. =)
Well if you made it this far...congrats.