i saw jeremy on friday. i can't tell if it made me more relieved&happy or more sad. but it made me think about what i was doing at this time last year, and how different i was. how naive i was, how naive i am. how much i have opened up to some people, how much i have closed myself off to other people. how much i hate some people for screwing me ( Read more... )

so school started on tuesday...and today's, what? thursday? i'm so confused. all i know is i have decent classes and i didn't have to go to guidance to change anything. meaning they didn't mess up my schedule. which makes me happy ( Read more... )

*sigh* there goes my last day of summer. it's been a fun weekend in general though. minus the whole tears deal a few nights ago. saturday, momma and i went into boston for the day. we went everywhere in the heat. scratch that. we walked everywhere in the heat. yeah...it was crazy to say the least. but fun ( Read more... )

i just want to stop screwing up. i want to make everything right again. i want to go back and take back the words i've said. i want to go back and not push and pry like i always do. because i messed it all up again. a perfectly good night. i don't know what's wrong with me.

help...

[Edit-11:56 p.m.->it feels better...i love you]

today...i went to wellesly with momma and wore a pretty dress. i ate some good food, shopped a little, and came home. meenal came over for a little bit and we studied french. we're possibly going to pull an all-nighter tomorrow to finish summer reading and all that jazz.

i'm bored&procrastinating my summer reading...survey :)

( you can blame cat for this one... )

everything will be okay-don't worry, it'll all be okay. i'm basically floating on this belief that has been drilled into my poor emotional head.

i feel like i've been looking for something. i just have no idea what something is. i've just felt so odd lately. one day i can have the best day, like on sunday. oh it was so much fun seeing tour people ( Read more... )

that's exactly the way it is too. because it's the thing i've been wanting to avoid all summer...but just the thing he needed. and i feel so amazingly selfish for asking him not to leave me, for telling him i wanted him to come home with me today. because he wants to be there, and now he's there ( Read more... )

wow. today was just...fucktastic, in a word. i'm glad it's all over and it was all a misunderstanding. but i've never felt this horrible in my entire life. i haven't felt this way in a long time...and i actually told someone. and my whole body just ached and hurt all day ( Read more... )

yay for california wedding pictures! there are lots...

( i am thinking it's a sign that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images and when we kiss they're perfectly aligned )

boredom...survey :-) wedding pictures coming soon.

( it's not hard to dream... )