let my chest cavity show, all your secrets that i have always known.
i hate this summer.
at the same time i love it.
ive never felt so old.
growing up sucks.
shit, i shouldnt even have to grow up yet, im only sixteen.
why are all my friends older, but i always have to be the mature one?
fuckkkk.
I have such mixed feelings right now.
I should just update based on how I feel friend by friend, since theres no way I could generalize how I feel about everything right now.
You should know who you are.
Im so sorry that you call me as drunk as I get, im a bad influence. . (erin said this about me in an entry a while ago, sorry for plagiarizing but it could not be better put.)
Youre a good person and you’ve made mistakes just like the rest of us.
I wanna experience so much with you. I want you to be happy.
Im so sorry I cant give you what you need anymore.
You have a lot of growing up to do and a promising future, im always here for you.
You make me so happy whenever you are around, I couldn’t ask for a better friend.
You understand me completely, and you could make anything better.
Thank you for always being here, and for changing my entire life.
I wish I could say moreeee.
I don’t care what they say about you.
They don’t know you.
And no advice or words of consolation could ease what youre feeling, but just know that I understand you.
Even when other people cant see the intentions behind your actions, I do.
It seems that lately most friends, both yours and mine, have many words but few facts, strong opinions but no legitimate basis to judge.
I love you, and I don’t care if your friends disagree when I say this- but no one will ever know you the way I do.
You piss me off so much, and you never follow through. But I fucking love you anyway.
Its so hard to talk to you, because you always tell me what I want to hear but never act on your words.
I never asked you to lie to me, or to sugarcoat anything. Trust me, I can handle the truth.
Youre the only one who makes things awkward, the rest of us always have fun.
It would be more fun if you were laughing with us.
Oh, and that was two fucking years ago. Please grow up.
I love you as my friend, even if you don’t feel the same.
Weve been friends forever, and now you act like youre too busy for me.
Summers nearly done, and I haven’t seen you once.
Not even fucking once.
Im sure you hang out with your two other best friends almost everyday.
Fuck it. Im done trying.
Thank you for coming back into my life.
You were my best friend last summer, and then you disappeared.
It really hurt when you stopped talking to me, although id never tell you that.
I missed you so much, I don’t think I mean half as much to you as you mean to me.
But that’s okay; im just glad we’re talking out again.
This is to a group of people:
You guys have made my summer this year.
I really am starting to get attached you three, I love being around you.
I think august will be even better than july.
Lets go on a million adventures.
You have an excuse every time im in town to not hang out.
You see your girlfriend every fucking day.
But you cant take one day out of your summer to see me. Not to mention the fact that she would blow you off for her friends at any given time.
Last summer we were together every day.
You were my only reason to even be in rhode island.
I don’t wanna not be friends over this, its stupid. But im sick of being the only one making any effort.
I miss you, and thanks for taking care of josh tonight.
It means a lot that you’ve been calling, we are definitely hanging out this week, I need someone to talk to.
And I feel like you would understand better than anyone.
Im sorry if I get emotional and gay, im not usually like that, but you know that.
Ilove you, youre my big brother<3.