ok venting...
I love everyone here but I hate feeling like this,
I'm always an after thought,
everyones good friend no ones more than
no one really cares what I do
so I should just leave here
i hate feeling like I'm not worth anything
i love all the time but never am loved
I'm loveless
empty
it sucks but its life
alone

Alone with so much company.....

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way away away from here I'll be- no matter what i'll remember

you were too good for me, I couldn't tell it from the start

Sometimes I must confess
it feels so cold to undress
and I am so less so much
more than you ever could know
and I know
the feeling I suppress
of loss and pained regret
love that will not show
I know you'll never know...
Cause I'm invisible!

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yeah I'm going to boston again tonight... sooo frickin tired not gonna be back till 3am so I guess I'm not doing anything tomorrow. Well call the cell if ya like. Wouldn't be a bad idea to keep me awake. Bandmasters tomorrow, play after... theory studying? god I hope I get a chance...