(Entry 13) Dear Diary....
Everything is under Private, but as usual, Haya is really bad at stuff and it would be child's play to crack it.....lol.
So.
I'm home from the hospital. Shi's kind of fussed at me because I came home on my own. I didn't tell him, but...I just needed to think about things.
I knew, intellectually, that the apartment would be empty. I read Raidou's note. I just...walking in there and feeling it for real, that he was really gone...
Man, that hurt. I hope he's ok. That note was just stupid. Did he really think I'd believe him? I don't know exactly what happened to make Izumo run away, but I know that Raidou's not in love with him. Anymore than he was really in love with me. He's just filling a hole, and until he recognizes that, he'll not be able to heal it. I hope...I hope for his sake that he can figure it out.
I'm really glad that Shisui moved back in though. I don't think I could take the silence.
Mist and Jo are freaking out a bit. They miss Rai as much as I do. They love Shisui, of course; he spoils them rotten and I just have to giggle whenever they get that blissed out, pampered kitty look on their faces. Little crazy shits. Jo has developed a habit of smacking me on the nose with his paw to wake me up in the middle of the night when he's feeling lonely and unappreciated. Which is pretty much always, lol.
I'm holding up. My shoulder hurts alot. They won't give me anymore major pain pills; the doc says he doesn't want me addicted to them. I almost said, 'why not, it's not like I'll be addicted to them very long, after all...' but I didn't want to cause Shisui anymore pain, so I kept my mouth shut. This really sucks though. I can't even put my pants on without help. Good thing I'm wiggly; I can mostly get into a pair of sweats myself.
But even so, I'm mostly happy. Fugaku and I talked at the hospital and I explained about Raidou-he'd heard that Rai was my boyfriend and it was making him sad, and I told him it wasn't true and that I liked him. That made him happy. I can't wait to stop feeling like shit so I can start planning that date I talked to Itachi about...
Speaking of dates, I still have those tickets Itachi gave to me. I should see if Shisui wants to go to that play with me. Would be good to get him out of the house. He's worried about something new; I don't know what it is yet but I plan on getting it out of him pretty soon.
So.
I'm home from the hospital. Shi's kind of fussed at me because I came home on my own. I didn't tell him, but...I just needed to think about things.
I knew, intellectually, that the apartment would be empty. I read Raidou's note. I just...walking in there and feeling it for real, that he was really gone...
Man, that hurt. I hope he's ok. That note was just stupid. Did he really think I'd believe him? I don't know exactly what happened to make Izumo run away, but I know that Raidou's not in love with him. Anymore than he was really in love with me. He's just filling a hole, and until he recognizes that, he'll not be able to heal it. I hope...I hope for his sake that he can figure it out.
I'm really glad that Shisui moved back in though. I don't think I could take the silence.
Mist and Jo are freaking out a bit. They miss Rai as much as I do. They love Shisui, of course; he spoils them rotten and I just have to giggle whenever they get that blissed out, pampered kitty look on their faces. Little crazy shits. Jo has developed a habit of smacking me on the nose with his paw to wake me up in the middle of the night when he's feeling lonely and unappreciated. Which is pretty much always, lol.
I'm holding up. My shoulder hurts alot. They won't give me anymore major pain pills; the doc says he doesn't want me addicted to them. I almost said, 'why not, it's not like I'll be addicted to them very long, after all...' but I didn't want to cause Shisui anymore pain, so I kept my mouth shut. This really sucks though. I can't even put my pants on without help. Good thing I'm wiggly; I can mostly get into a pair of sweats myself.
But even so, I'm mostly happy. Fugaku and I talked at the hospital and I explained about Raidou-he'd heard that Rai was my boyfriend and it was making him sad, and I told him it wasn't true and that I liked him. That made him happy. I can't wait to stop feeling like shit so I can start planning that date I talked to Itachi about...
Speaking of dates, I still have those tickets Itachi gave to me. I should see if Shisui wants to go to that play with me. Would be good to get him out of the house. He's worried about something new; I don't know what it is yet but I plan on getting it out of him pretty soon.