...Sooooo...

[snowangel3]

...I'm thinking perhaps I don't want to do this. I mean this. I don't think I'm cut out for it. In total honesty, I'm not even sure I feel like finishing out the year, but if I do, I think it will be my one year in the profession. I just...I don't know if I can do this. Forever. Or even for another day. I dunno...I sorta came to that

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worries

[understyled]

having a hard time with the kids? or is it just the job in general?
too hectic?

Re: worries

[snowangel3]

It's sorta...all of it. I mean, the kids are almost entirely great, except that one class, which is so bad. Which is par for the course, but I guess if it upsets me this much now, that won't change much over the years. Veteran teachers still get really bad classes.
And then there's the whole parents-bitching-at-you non-stop for bullshit reasons when really their kids are slackers, but of course it's my fault. No one ever says, "Hey, you're doing a great job!" The only time you hear anything is complaints.
And lastly all the adminstrative bullshit. It takes (apparently) minimal brainpower to be an administrator and to boss/harass teachers. The structure at this school blows. Period.

I just don't think I can take this all, plus for the hours & effort I put in, and the money I make? Not sure it's worth it anymore.

Re: worries

[understyled]

Ah yes, all these things weighed heavily on my mind when I was wondering whether I should attempt to get a teaching job. It really is one of the toughest jobs out there, dealing with brats on a daily basis, being overworked for the pay, putting a lot of personal time into course preparation, putting up with parents, like you mentioned, are all nasty aspects of the job. I know it's rare to get a "Great job you're doing, my kid loves you" but you can't beat yourself up over it.

It's a job, something that puts food on the table, but it can also be extremely rewarding if you're preaching to a receptive crowd. I have no doubt there will be days when you just want to wring the necks of the troublemakers, but hopefully they will be offset by the number of good days you have, where you see kids actually learning things, and on some basic level, appreciating it.

And it's quite common to see the management/administration as slaves to the process in any job you're in.. You just can't let it get to you. Don't bring the soap opera home.

Re: worries

[snowangel3]

It doesn't even put food on the table. I make less doing this than I made at the shoe store. I make -$200 a month, which means I can't technically afford to live, let alone eat. Yeah.