Ficlet!!
After two years of only reading Stargate fanfic I finally managed to write one.
Since it can't go where I had intended it to go and I don't have a website I decided to share it here.
I guess I should probably warn you that it deals with the events of Meridian.
Title: Smile though your heart is breaking
Author: Snowdrop
Feedback: Yes, please? :-) Here or to snowdrop3100 at uni dot de
Rating: R- for language
Pairing: J/D
Category: AUish
Season/Spoilers: Season 5 Episode: Meridian
Synopsis: Jack's POV of the events as we didn't get to see in Meridian.
Warnings: This is not a fix-it. Oh and a bit of language.
Author's Note: Thanks go to Birgitt, Ziyal and Brynn H for the beta. And to
Xim for holding my hand and giving it the first read through.
I can't believe they are blaming you.
I have to keep a straight face when all I want to do is yell at them to
fucking check their priorities.
It hurts to see you there in that bed surrounded by all the medical
equipment Janet could think of and know that all the doohickeys in the world
can't make you whole again.
I have to let you go, don't I? I couldn't put you through what your life
would be if I let them keep you alive. If only...
And suddenly you're there. Out of that horrible bed and we are both
surrounded by a strange glow.
You tell me to let you go, that you can achieve more that way.
I tell you that I love you more than my life and if it were possible I'd
trade places. You smile.
I look into your eyes and hope that you see in mine what I think I see in
yours. All the love I never dared hope for is shining from them.
You tell me that you knew and that you hope I can forgive you for having to
leave. I sigh.
Of course I can and I tell you so. I would never forgive myself if I would
force you to live like that.
I absolutely love Sting's 'If you love somebody set them free'. And he's
right - how could I not?
Suddenly the glow around me is gone and I'm back in the infirmary with Jacob
and the others. And it breaks my heart but I tell him to stop trying to heal
you.
We all watch you going glowy and I'm alone with you again.
With tears in both our eyes we say goodbye and you join Oma on the ramp.
The next mission without you is hell but I can't give up on us. You told me
you didn't know if we would meet again but I'm hopeful...no I'm sure that
you will find a way to come back to me.
When we leave the base I feel a whiff of air beside me.
I smile.
Okay now I only have to convince the Daniel-muse Jack brought along on his second visit that it's okay to tell me the rest of the other story Jack decided to share. Wish me luck ;-).
Since it can't go where I had intended it to go and I don't have a website I decided to share it here.
I guess I should probably warn you that it deals with the events of Meridian.
Title: Smile though your heart is breaking
Author: Snowdrop
Feedback: Yes, please? :-) Here or to snowdrop3100 at uni dot de
Rating: R- for language
Pairing: J/D
Category: AUish
Season/Spoilers: Season 5 Episode: Meridian
Synopsis: Jack's POV of the events as we didn't get to see in Meridian.
Warnings: This is not a fix-it. Oh and a bit of language.
Author's Note: Thanks go to Birgitt, Ziyal and Brynn H for the beta. And to
Xim for holding my hand and giving it the first read through.
I can't believe they are blaming you.
I have to keep a straight face when all I want to do is yell at them to
fucking check their priorities.
It hurts to see you there in that bed surrounded by all the medical
equipment Janet could think of and know that all the doohickeys in the world
can't make you whole again.
I have to let you go, don't I? I couldn't put you through what your life
would be if I let them keep you alive. If only...
And suddenly you're there. Out of that horrible bed and we are both
surrounded by a strange glow.
You tell me to let you go, that you can achieve more that way.
I tell you that I love you more than my life and if it were possible I'd
trade places. You smile.
I look into your eyes and hope that you see in mine what I think I see in
yours. All the love I never dared hope for is shining from them.
You tell me that you knew and that you hope I can forgive you for having to
leave. I sigh.
Of course I can and I tell you so. I would never forgive myself if I would
force you to live like that.
I absolutely love Sting's 'If you love somebody set them free'. And he's
right - how could I not?
Suddenly the glow around me is gone and I'm back in the infirmary with Jacob
and the others. And it breaks my heart but I tell him to stop trying to heal
you.
We all watch you going glowy and I'm alone with you again.
With tears in both our eyes we say goodbye and you join Oma on the ramp.
The next mission without you is hell but I can't give up on us. You told me
you didn't know if we would meet again but I'm hopeful...no I'm sure that
you will find a way to come back to me.
When we leave the base I feel a whiff of air beside me.
I smile.
Okay now I only have to convince the Daniel-muse Jack brought along on his second visit that it's okay to tell me the rest of the other story Jack decided to share. Wish me luck ;-).