I am so sick and tired of being me its just sad.. the more i try to get things in my life settled the more the faits work against me.. is it bad karma from my lives before?? Or am i the faits little play thing..This really sucks.. i mean am i really that bad of a person..?? if it weren't for a very select group of indiviuals.. i dont know what i ( Read more... )

Hes gone. It can't be... He is only 17, going to E.C.U in the fall, pre med. ADAM!!!!!!!! It doesn't feel like hes gone, This isn't really he wasn't in that jeep, it couldn't be. nothing was in the way, no one hit him, he didn't drink, he didn't take anything. WHy... some one explane why in the hell it was him an not me.Im the idiot driver,, the ( Read more... )

nothing ever gets easier does it? I should be heappy,but im not I feel more an more alone.. I feel close to people but Why can't I let go an talk. I know i am afraid to get close to people because i dont wanna get hurt anymore. Where do u find those people. Devin i love you an im sorry i get so distant when things bother me. i just do it out of ( Read more... )

So what have i been up to... Well, at least Im out of the hospitals for now. I still have lost of tests that they want to do, whichi is always a whole hell of a lot of fun. What ever. They found out a major part of what was wrong but there is still to many unanswered questions they say they have, I m thinkin the question being asked the most is " ( Read more... )

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So I haven't actually solidly written in here for awhile. it use to be an outlet for me. I just have been wanting to avoid as much of everything as possible. I m tired of the same old bull shit. im tired of being the cool headed one compared to others who should have their shit together. The only plus side to my life is devin right now. hes ( Read more... )

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Why is that everytime Someone needs a friend I am always there?? I dont mind at all I am glad that they know they can come to me with what ever it is thats wrong..no matter what! But why do I always feel so alone?? Why can't I find anyone when i need someone to talk to? It has always been like that. I can't be the care free jessiy all the time.. ( Read more... )