One Sided
Title: One Sided
Pairing: JeTi
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst, Romance
One Sided
Jessica's attention shifted from the television to her phone when she felt it vibrate.
From Tiffany: Open the door.
Jessica didn't know whether if she wanted to smile or frown at the text. Either way, she picked herself up from her bed and headed out of her room and to the sliding doors. One of the advantages to having the whole basement to yourself with a sliding door is that she can sneak out or sneak people in and her parents wouldn't even notice because there's a whole floor between them.
Jessica opens her curtains to see her late night visitor. The girl's smiling a light smile, but her eyelids are droopy.
"Hey Jessi," Tiffany said followed by a peck to Jessica's lips as she enters Jessica's basement.
"Tired?"
"Just a bit."
Tiffany makes her way to Jessica's bedroom, already familiar with the settings of the house. Jessica follows her.
Tiffany removed her heels and welcomed herself onto Jessica's bed, eliciting a soft chuckle from Jessica.
"C'mere," Tiffany spoke her slurred words. She places her hands just above Jessica's elbows and pulls her in for a kiss.
Jessica's able to taste the alcohol on Tiffany's breath more now that they're sharing longer and deeper kisses, but she's use to it.
Jessica removes Tiffany's blazer first. Tiffany then moved her hands to Jessica's waist, ready to remove Jessica's boxer shorts until Jessica removes her lips from Tiffany's and places her hands on top of Tiffany's.
"Remember our deal?" Jessica said in-between breaths.
Of course Tiffany remembers, but she was hoping during a moment of adrenaline that Jessica would forget. It wasn't really an unfair deal - well, not to Tiffany. Jessica would pleasure Tiffany, but not get anything back in return. Jessica had asked for that though. She was honest with Tiffany and said if she were to lose her virginity, she would want to lose it to someone she has something with. Something more meaningful, not some "friends with benefits" title. Tiffany respect that. Afterall, she was still getting something out if regardless. Also, that's the least she can do for Jessica as the other girl does everything else for her.
"Yeah, I remember. Sorry, the alcohol is still boggling my mind."
Jessica smirks and just shrugs it off and picked up where they left off.
*****
Jessica sees Tiffany at school a handful amount at school, but they don't really associate - the occasional hello and hug every now and then in the hallways. They have quite a complex relationship.
Tiffany's your typical popular girl that parties every weekend and has everyone trying to get into her pants. Jessica, on the other hand, is not a nobody, but she chooses to stay a little more to herself. The party life just isn't her scene, but she associates with a handful of popular people. Tiffany being the popular girl obviously has many people crushing on her, and Jessica is not an exception. But with Jessica it is one step past just a crush.
They met at a party that Jessica was actually willing to attend (just because the party thrower was Tiffany), but even then she felt so out of place at the party. Everyone was dancing with each other, holding a drink in their hand. Jessica's not much of a dancer, but she can drink. Jessica's friend - the one that brought her along - Yuri would try to get her to dance, but she would always awkwardly back away.
Tiffany came over at one point to ask Jessica if she was okay because she was the only one sitting down and she didn't really look like she was having fun. Jessica tensed up immediately when Tiffany sat down next to her and asked if she was having fun. She uttered some unintelligent "uhhs" a few times before Tiffany giggled and said, "Not your scene, huh?" Jessica sighed a sigh of relief and merely nodded.
Tiffany scooted closer to Jessica and pecked her on the corner of her lips. Jessica felt like all the air has been sucked from her lungs and she's left frozen.
"Lighten up a bit," Tiffany whispered into her ear to be heard over the loud music.
"C'mere," Tiffany said and Jessica followed. She really wasn't gonna deny her crush's request.
Tiffany brings to a bedroom that Jessica presumed was her own.
"Less suffocating, right?" Tiffany asked as she pulled Jessica to take a seat on the bed next to her.
Jessica nodded.
Tiffany let out a chuckle, "You don't talk much, huh?"
Jessica opened her mouth slightly to respond, but Tiffany pressed a kiss onto her mouth before she got a chance to retaliate.
"Just tell me if you want me to stop." Tiffany said as she left trails of wet kisses on Jessica's jaw line.
Jessica didn't want her to stop at all, but she knew deep down this is not a way she wants to lose her virginity even if it was with someone she likes because it'd still be meaningless because this would be a one-night stand.
"Wait," Jessica speaks her first word to Tiffany that night.
"I don't want you to stop, but I don't want you to go any further." Jessica continues. Tiffany gives her a confused look.
GOODNESS SHE IS SO ADORABLE. Jessica still couldn't help her thoughts.
"I'm a virgin." Jessica blurted out honestly.
"And to be honest with you, this isn't exactly how I want to lose it." Jessica continued.
Tiffany nodded in understanding and distances herself from Jessica a bit only to pulled back into a deep kiss by Jessica.
Jessica felt the need to explain before she continues.
"I can still...y'know, but you just don't have to return the favor." Jessica said awkwardly.
Tiffany laughs and just pulls Jessica into another kiss. Jessica takes that as a sure, whatever.
*****
They've been obtaining this relationship for roughly six months now. How it continued? Neither really knows why, but neither are complaining either.
Jessica's still crushing on Tiffany (bordering love now), but still doesn't know where Tiffany stands. So she takes advantage of the times they spend together. When it's just the two of them, Jessica treats Tiffany as if she's really her girlfriend.
So every morning after, Jessica always gets Tiffany breakfast. Her usual caramel coffee and a sausage and egg bagel.
This morning is no different. Jessica wakes up before Tiffany, goes get her breakfast, comes back and Tiffany is still sleeping.
Jessica smiles at how cute the girl looks sleeping. Jessica adores everything about the girl.
Jessica approaches the sleeping girl, kisses her forehead, then shakes her slightly and says, "Wake up, sleepyhead."
Tiffany opens her eyes slowly with her eyebrows furrowed until her vision clears and she sees a smiling Jessica hovering over her.
"Hurry before breakfast gets cold!" Jessica says cutely before she pecks Tiffany on the forehead one more time before going to the living room to let Tiffany get ready.
After a little over five minutes, Tiffany comes out of Jessica's room clad in Jessica's thin hoodie and boxer shorts.
She takes a seat next to Jessica on the sofa and the latter tells her to eat before the food gets cold and doesn't taste good anymore.
Jessica takes a bite out of her own bagel and then turns to Tiffany just to realize the girl still has yet to touch her breakfast.
Jessica places her bagel down and a worried look adorns her face immediately.
"Tiff, what's wrong?"
"Jessica, why are you so nice to me? We aren't in a relationship. We have sex - well one-sided sex, and that should be it, but it isn't. I stay after that and we cuddle till the morning and you get me breakfast. You don't have to do this. We aren't really anything to each other."
To say Jessica's heart has just shattered into a million pieces was an understatement. Her eyes are brimming with tears, but she's refusing to let them fall.
"I'm sorry. Does all of this make you uncomfortable?" Jessica tried to keep her composure.
"No! Why are you apologizing? You're not in the wrong! I just don't understand."
Jessica's flabbergasted and is now lost at words.
"Why do you do all this when you don't have to? You don't have to have one-sided sex with me, you don't have to cuddle with me at night, you don't have to buy me breakfast every morning after, and you don't have to do and say those sweet nothings!" Tiffany continued.
"You're right, we're nothing to each other and I don't have to do all these little things that I do, but I still do it. But you know what, that's the thing. You're not just someone I have one-sided sex with, cuddle with, and buy breakfast for the morning after for no reason. Sure, maybe to you that's all you see, but not to me. I hate to admit this, but you mean something to me. More than something, actually, but why would I admit that? Why am I even admitting it now after hearing how you view all of this? We really should've never let it escalate this far. Actually, that's my fault. I let it get this far. You can walk out because I'm in no position to keep you here because I am nothing to you." Jessica said all too quickly with tears streaming down her face without her realizing that they are.
That actually hit Tiffany harder than she expected it to. Jessica looks so broken right now and it hurts her heart to see Jessica like this.
Tiffany puts her hand on Jessica's arm just for the latter to snatch away.
"Jessi, I'm sorry. That's not what I meant." Tiffany quickly realize how harsh and hollow her words were.
Jessica smiled bitterly with tears still streaming down her face, "No, don't apologize for saying exactly what you wanted to. Tiffany, I put the burden of treating you like my girlfriend on your shoulders. I shouldn't have done that because you aren't my girlfriend and I put you in a difficult position for my own selfish reasons."
Tiffany listened intently, waiting to hear if Jessica will name her selfish reasons.
"I love you, Tiffany." Jessica finally admitted.
Tiffany was speechless. It was as if someone has stolen her voice box. She was lost for words. Jessica Jung loves her and she never took a second to look deeper into every little thing Jessica does to realize that. Her heart is hurting ever more now and her brain is boggled up. She doesn't know what to do nor does she know what she's feeling.
Upon seeing how frozen Tiffany is, Jessica presumes the girl would want some space so she went ahead to her room.
It was all fun and games until someone catches feelings.
Pairing: JeTi
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst, Romance
One Sided
Jessica's attention shifted from the television to her phone when she felt it vibrate.
From Tiffany: Open the door.
Jessica didn't know whether if she wanted to smile or frown at the text. Either way, she picked herself up from her bed and headed out of her room and to the sliding doors. One of the advantages to having the whole basement to yourself with a sliding door is that she can sneak out or sneak people in and her parents wouldn't even notice because there's a whole floor between them.
Jessica opens her curtains to see her late night visitor. The girl's smiling a light smile, but her eyelids are droopy.
"Hey Jessi," Tiffany said followed by a peck to Jessica's lips as she enters Jessica's basement.
"Tired?"
"Just a bit."
Tiffany makes her way to Jessica's bedroom, already familiar with the settings of the house. Jessica follows her.
Tiffany removed her heels and welcomed herself onto Jessica's bed, eliciting a soft chuckle from Jessica.
"C'mere," Tiffany spoke her slurred words. She places her hands just above Jessica's elbows and pulls her in for a kiss.
Jessica's able to taste the alcohol on Tiffany's breath more now that they're sharing longer and deeper kisses, but she's use to it.
Jessica removes Tiffany's blazer first. Tiffany then moved her hands to Jessica's waist, ready to remove Jessica's boxer shorts until Jessica removes her lips from Tiffany's and places her hands on top of Tiffany's.
"Remember our deal?" Jessica said in-between breaths.
Of course Tiffany remembers, but she was hoping during a moment of adrenaline that Jessica would forget. It wasn't really an unfair deal - well, not to Tiffany. Jessica would pleasure Tiffany, but not get anything back in return. Jessica had asked for that though. She was honest with Tiffany and said if she were to lose her virginity, she would want to lose it to someone she has something with. Something more meaningful, not some "friends with benefits" title. Tiffany respect that. Afterall, she was still getting something out if regardless. Also, that's the least she can do for Jessica as the other girl does everything else for her.
"Yeah, I remember. Sorry, the alcohol is still boggling my mind."
Jessica smirks and just shrugs it off and picked up where they left off.
*****
Jessica sees Tiffany at school a handful amount at school, but they don't really associate - the occasional hello and hug every now and then in the hallways. They have quite a complex relationship.
Tiffany's your typical popular girl that parties every weekend and has everyone trying to get into her pants. Jessica, on the other hand, is not a nobody, but she chooses to stay a little more to herself. The party life just isn't her scene, but she associates with a handful of popular people. Tiffany being the popular girl obviously has many people crushing on her, and Jessica is not an exception. But with Jessica it is one step past just a crush.
They met at a party that Jessica was actually willing to attend (just because the party thrower was Tiffany), but even then she felt so out of place at the party. Everyone was dancing with each other, holding a drink in their hand. Jessica's not much of a dancer, but she can drink. Jessica's friend - the one that brought her along - Yuri would try to get her to dance, but she would always awkwardly back away.
Tiffany came over at one point to ask Jessica if she was okay because she was the only one sitting down and she didn't really look like she was having fun. Jessica tensed up immediately when Tiffany sat down next to her and asked if she was having fun. She uttered some unintelligent "uhhs" a few times before Tiffany giggled and said, "Not your scene, huh?" Jessica sighed a sigh of relief and merely nodded.
Tiffany scooted closer to Jessica and pecked her on the corner of her lips. Jessica felt like all the air has been sucked from her lungs and she's left frozen.
"Lighten up a bit," Tiffany whispered into her ear to be heard over the loud music.
"C'mere," Tiffany said and Jessica followed. She really wasn't gonna deny her crush's request.
Tiffany brings to a bedroom that Jessica presumed was her own.
"Less suffocating, right?" Tiffany asked as she pulled Jessica to take a seat on the bed next to her.
Jessica nodded.
Tiffany let out a chuckle, "You don't talk much, huh?"
Jessica opened her mouth slightly to respond, but Tiffany pressed a kiss onto her mouth before she got a chance to retaliate.
"Just tell me if you want me to stop." Tiffany said as she left trails of wet kisses on Jessica's jaw line.
Jessica didn't want her to stop at all, but she knew deep down this is not a way she wants to lose her virginity even if it was with someone she likes because it'd still be meaningless because this would be a one-night stand.
"Wait," Jessica speaks her first word to Tiffany that night.
"I don't want you to stop, but I don't want you to go any further." Jessica continues. Tiffany gives her a confused look.
GOODNESS SHE IS SO ADORABLE. Jessica still couldn't help her thoughts.
"I'm a virgin." Jessica blurted out honestly.
"And to be honest with you, this isn't exactly how I want to lose it." Jessica continued.
Tiffany nodded in understanding and distances herself from Jessica a bit only to pulled back into a deep kiss by Jessica.
Jessica felt the need to explain before she continues.
"I can still...y'know, but you just don't have to return the favor." Jessica said awkwardly.
Tiffany laughs and just pulls Jessica into another kiss. Jessica takes that as a sure, whatever.
*****
They've been obtaining this relationship for roughly six months now. How it continued? Neither really knows why, but neither are complaining either.
Jessica's still crushing on Tiffany (bordering love now), but still doesn't know where Tiffany stands. So she takes advantage of the times they spend together. When it's just the two of them, Jessica treats Tiffany as if she's really her girlfriend.
So every morning after, Jessica always gets Tiffany breakfast. Her usual caramel coffee and a sausage and egg bagel.
This morning is no different. Jessica wakes up before Tiffany, goes get her breakfast, comes back and Tiffany is still sleeping.
Jessica smiles at how cute the girl looks sleeping. Jessica adores everything about the girl.
Jessica approaches the sleeping girl, kisses her forehead, then shakes her slightly and says, "Wake up, sleepyhead."
Tiffany opens her eyes slowly with her eyebrows furrowed until her vision clears and she sees a smiling Jessica hovering over her.
"Hurry before breakfast gets cold!" Jessica says cutely before she pecks Tiffany on the forehead one more time before going to the living room to let Tiffany get ready.
After a little over five minutes, Tiffany comes out of Jessica's room clad in Jessica's thin hoodie and boxer shorts.
She takes a seat next to Jessica on the sofa and the latter tells her to eat before the food gets cold and doesn't taste good anymore.
Jessica takes a bite out of her own bagel and then turns to Tiffany just to realize the girl still has yet to touch her breakfast.
Jessica places her bagel down and a worried look adorns her face immediately.
"Tiff, what's wrong?"
"Jessica, why are you so nice to me? We aren't in a relationship. We have sex - well one-sided sex, and that should be it, but it isn't. I stay after that and we cuddle till the morning and you get me breakfast. You don't have to do this. We aren't really anything to each other."
To say Jessica's heart has just shattered into a million pieces was an understatement. Her eyes are brimming with tears, but she's refusing to let them fall.
"I'm sorry. Does all of this make you uncomfortable?" Jessica tried to keep her composure.
"No! Why are you apologizing? You're not in the wrong! I just don't understand."
Jessica's flabbergasted and is now lost at words.
"Why do you do all this when you don't have to? You don't have to have one-sided sex with me, you don't have to cuddle with me at night, you don't have to buy me breakfast every morning after, and you don't have to do and say those sweet nothings!" Tiffany continued.
"You're right, we're nothing to each other and I don't have to do all these little things that I do, but I still do it. But you know what, that's the thing. You're not just someone I have one-sided sex with, cuddle with, and buy breakfast for the morning after for no reason. Sure, maybe to you that's all you see, but not to me. I hate to admit this, but you mean something to me. More than something, actually, but why would I admit that? Why am I even admitting it now after hearing how you view all of this? We really should've never let it escalate this far. Actually, that's my fault. I let it get this far. You can walk out because I'm in no position to keep you here because I am nothing to you." Jessica said all too quickly with tears streaming down her face without her realizing that they are.
That actually hit Tiffany harder than she expected it to. Jessica looks so broken right now and it hurts her heart to see Jessica like this.
Tiffany puts her hand on Jessica's arm just for the latter to snatch away.
"Jessi, I'm sorry. That's not what I meant." Tiffany quickly realize how harsh and hollow her words were.
Jessica smiled bitterly with tears still streaming down her face, "No, don't apologize for saying exactly what you wanted to. Tiffany, I put the burden of treating you like my girlfriend on your shoulders. I shouldn't have done that because you aren't my girlfriend and I put you in a difficult position for my own selfish reasons."
Tiffany listened intently, waiting to hear if Jessica will name her selfish reasons.
"I love you, Tiffany." Jessica finally admitted.
Tiffany was speechless. It was as if someone has stolen her voice box. She was lost for words. Jessica Jung loves her and she never took a second to look deeper into every little thing Jessica does to realize that. Her heart is hurting ever more now and her brain is boggled up. She doesn't know what to do nor does she know what she's feeling.
Upon seeing how frozen Tiffany is, Jessica presumes the girl would want some space so she went ahead to her room.
It was all fun and games until someone catches feelings.