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I had been erika free for about a month and hadn't talked to her/chjecked online for her/done anything about seeing her, but in a moment of weakness I decided to check and see how she was doing and I'm officially blocked. whoo.

Self actualisation and analysis of your personal motivations is very scary. There are times where you just do the wrong thing. Then you keep doing the wrong thing because it's easier, and you're selfish and don't want to work. Now I need to get my ass in gear and do what will make me happy. I'm gonna start by doing the laundry and cleaning my ( Read more... )

fucking lonely... It's hard to imagine that I'd still feel like this a month and a half later. I can't even really pinpoint what I miss anyways, I guess I just miss having someone around. I'm still having trouble sleeping. Insomnia seems to be a part of every night I don' drink. People seem to be ignoring me, and I'm not happy with anything ( Read more... )

What is it with a fucking goatee that makes people look at you different? Am I any edgier now that I have a little extra scruff on my chin? Do I give off a certain air of non-chalant flair? In actuality I put more effort into keeping it trimmed correctly than in chopping everything off. ::boggle ( Read more... )

So... Happy week ( Read more... )

My grandfather's in the hospital tonight with pneumonia and heart problems. If you pray, please pray for him. Otherwise, send positive thoughts in his direction. My mother was supposed to call me tonight, and hasn't, so I have no idea if that's a good or a bad sign. Usually she calls me if there's nothing wrong because she doesn't have whatever ( Read more... )

You know... I tried to be a nice person about everything... I tried to be good and to do what I said I would... try and be a good friend a good friend, but I'm getting affected in all the wrong ways, so I'm going to take the advice I've heard so many times and sever myself ( Read more... )

It's funny the things you forget... Just had a really long conversation with an ex, and I feel calm and composed again. Thanks Ashleigh, and sorry for the long reign of silence. It's sad, but I think it's what we needed to be able to talk like that now. Odd weekend... I think I was bipolar for most of it ( Read more... )

I took my test yesterday, and hopefully in a couple of weeks I'll be a member of Mensa. No one showed any faith in me when I told em I'd get in. I'll show you all. You'll rue the day... ruuuueeee...