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PART 4
It’s been 2 months since Akihiko’s confession and though there are times when he and Yuuki will get into arguments because he wants the latter to stop reading the journal, but the other insisted that it’s important to him and Akihiko will retort that Yuuki only want to read it because he wants to remember who really Hayato was.
But still Yuuki continues to read those entries coz somehow he wants to find the answer who he really was before the accident happened and who’s Hayato really is in his life and if the feeling he really have for his is what you called love.
Again he opened his journal and start reading the entries then he came across another entry that made his heart ache.
Oct 15
These past few days, he’s being cold to me… I can’t understand why though. I can’t remember if I did something that made him this way. I’m not cheating on him nor making plans or going out without informing him. As far as I know I’m a good partner… or am I not?
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Oct 28
Now, I understand why he’s acting that way… Maybe I’m not really a good partner to him… I didn’t know what to feel as of the moment… The reason, I saw him with someone else… I’d like to surprise him so I went to his office so we can go and have dinner together but I guess I was the one who was surprised… I saw them making out in the parking lot near his car… No, I haven’t old him yet… I can’t bring myself to…
Yuuki can see traces of dried tears on the page… ‘I cried while writing this’ he said to himself. And start to pack the diary away when something flash through his mind like a black and white movie playing right in front of him.
“Don’t accuse me of something when you don’t have a proof” a guy scream on top of his lungs.
“What do you want me to do? I want a straight forward answer and you’re giving me bunch of lies!” another voice echo
“Are you calling me a liar?”
“Yes you are! Stop playing dumb! I saw it with my own eyes, you’re making out on the parking lot. Why? I thought you love me? Why are you doing this to me?”
“What are you doing there? Are you spying on me?”
“I’m not spying on you! Please I want to finish this discussion. Just answer my question”
“I’m not answering that. Better drop that subject”
And with that the person walks out of the door and slam it behind him.
Yuuki clutch his head as he calm his self and the erratic beating of his heart. What are those scenes he saw on his mind? It is his past? But he can’t clearly see the face of the person he’s talking to? Could that be that he’s Hayato?
Should he tell it to Akihiko? But if he does the other will only get mad, so Yuuki decided to keep that flashes to himself until he’s ready to confess it to his lover.
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“Ne Yuuki let’s go and stroll at the park. It’s been a year since we did it” said Akihiko as he grabs the young man’s hand and urge him to agree.
“Ok! But first answer my question… Why do you wanna go to the park?” as the latter raise his eyebrows trying to give emphasis to his question.
“I just wanna have fun with my precious Yuuki” Akihiko cheekily grin at the smaller man.
Hearing this Yuuki laugh and hug Aki ‘I made the right decision then of giving him a chance’
“Aki chan” he called
“Yes?”
“Thank you”
“For what?”
Then Yuuki gave him a genuine smile and answered “For loving me. I made the right decision of letting go of Hayato’s memories.”
Akihiko smiled upon hearing this and said “thank you for giving me a chance.” ‘I promise I won’t make the same mistakes I’ve done in the past’
“I love you Yuuki chan!”
“I love you too Aki chan…”
Then Yuuki lean forward and gave his lover a passionate kiss. Aki once again gave him a warm hug before ushering him towards the door.
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Part 5