and it felt so sweet...

[so__desperately]

i have had a lot of emotional issues lately, all of which are really beginning to weigh me down and distract me

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[___m0derngirl]

aw im so sorry to hear that you're not feeling great lately :\

where would you go if you decided not to return to iowa next semester?

i dont really understand why you get so upset about mike smoking? well i mean i guess i do, since he smokes alllll the time...but like why wont you hangout with him when hes smoking and stuff? what bothers you about it? im just curious. but yeah thats really really shitty that he picks it over you when you tell him youre going to leave if he smokes. he should NOT do that :(

i hope you feel better sooon, baby. make it through finals and then go homeeee which i'm sure will cheer you up!!<3333333333

[so__desperately]

it's really hard to explain why i get so upset about it, but mike used to be a huge stoner.. smoking like 1/8 a day.. and then his life started to revolve around pot and x. he was basically a burn out.. and when i first met him i saw him when he was like really fucked up on a bunch of shit and it was sad. at the time i didn't really care i just thought it was a big turnoff, but it's different now that i care about him so much. then once school started he had to stop smoking for a month because he knew his parents were gonna drug test him on his birthday and then once his bday passed and they didn't test him, he started smoking again and i got to really see how important it becomes for him to smoke and how he ALWAYS wants to do it and i basically start to feel like he's in another relationship. and i just don't want it to become the number one thing in his life again. and it feels like i never get to hangout with mike when he's NOT high. also the fact that he knows it bothers me and so i ask him to not call me if he's planning on