so here i am
another tuesday night
of not doing homework
its raining out
its been raining for awhile
i felt really sick most of this afternoon
ive felt crappy for a really long time now

part of it is i think my chronic pessimistic nature
and im working on that
but another part has to do with people that ive been around
i feel like no matter how much i do
no ( Read more... )

"im just not as happy as used to be and maybe if we could try taking a break for a little while, and see how that goes ( Read more... )

everything goes wrong

its awesome. im telling you.

many. oh so many.

then again im not sure if i was ever really in paradise. oh well.

my schedule is intense.
tonight was brandons for his and nick's bdays
we watched lots of old skits
<3 backstreet boys ( Read more... )

well ( Read more... )

I'm feeling out of luck so I won't see you soon
'cause I know it's too soon for you to see me
if this is the last thing you do just tell me that it's o.k.
for me to have these feelings for you
and that it's normal to want to call you.
Oh I'm dialing the phone and I'm letting it ring for hours
and I'm pretending to hear your voice-
Why does my heart ( Read more... )

hello livejournal ( Read more... )

...the more i step out of the light ( Read more... )

sigh
volleyball has consumed me
and school is still two weeks away
holy shit
not even two
omg :-[
thats scary
we got schedules
mine sucks. pretty hard.

heres to the last few days of summer
and to the allie-cats *
and rondell + gangs of new york *
and the STAFF
and the 12 minute drill
and the poker
and 'rasing a dee'
and dee herself
and nick <3 [ ( Read more... )

this weekend was fantastic
<3 enough said

volleyball camp started this week
i worked both sessions and stood for 8 1/2 hours straight
i almost want to cry now my legs are so tired hahaha its pathetic
good kids though

dont know why im updating
oh well ?

sometimes i just wish i could know what you were really thinking