Ten things I want to say to ten different people:

1. I hate you for making me come here.
2. Thank you so much for being there for me. I hope I can be there for you when you need me. Whenever. Just call. So I'll see you at my wedding ;)
3. I regret it.
4. I wish I was you.
5. I would die for you. But I won't live for you.
6. I hope I made a ( Read more... )

and we're done unpacking. almost. but it still just feels like a house. and not a home ( Read more... )

SHOW CHOIR COMP. THIS FRIDAY AT EASTLAKE HS . WISH US LUCK!!

WE GOT A HOUSE. MY DAD'S PAINTING IT RIGHT NOW

I MISS MY BOYFRIEND.

LIFE HAS BEEN GOOD.

THANK YOU LIFE.

:)

i don't want to grow up and live an average life. that, to me, is so boring. but i guess that's what your teenage years are for. so then i wonder sometimes what i am doing.

you accept the love you think you deserve.

i should be at practice right now.

i'm not content at all . and i haven't been . and i've been trying to be. and it hasn't been ( Read more... )

And it's a good turning point of my day.

I'm determined to keep it this way.
Winterformal will be fun & I won't worry.

Aerodrone is my new favorite.
&& I've only been listening to them for like . 5 minutes.

I'm  scared of regret.
I don't want to do it anymore.
Go with the flow .
I need to be happy .

K thanks bye.

In school all the mexican's kept saying how cute my shoes were. Either that or 'Omg what the hell is she wearing' . It was interesting to get such attention over shoes. It's not who got into Yale around here. It's who's wearing what. And I think it's a little pathetic-almost humorous. Actually, no. It IS funny. And I wonder what these girls want to ( Read more... )

I need to learn a little self respect.
Thanks mom.
but it's harder than it sounds. & I'm gonna need all the help I can get. 
   Today was the true beginning of the Jesi workout plan.
Pilates, 7 laps around the Pavillion..... What's gooood? :-) And I've stuck to my diet for the last 3 days. .. HAHA That's pretty good so far.
And maybe it's also the ( Read more... )

It wasn't so bad.
A guy in my science class got into Yale. And I kept thinking about it. I wonder how proud his parents are of him. And if he wanted to get into that school in the first place. And if his parents ever bother to ask him how his day was. And tell him that they love him. And said more than commands to him on a daily basis. And noticed ( Read more... )

How I feel doesn't match what I'm doing.
At all.

How can I better myself.
Why do I always feel useless and unable?
Where did it all go? Was it the summer? It never seems to go away.
I thought I've accepted my faults and moved on. But I guess it's gonna take longer than that.

It hurts. And I just have to let it keep going.
What else can I do