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I guess it's time for a update...
Alright,
Friday
Was not such a hot day..actaully it was pretty bad....not only cause me and Rachel were fighting (that happens alot) but because everything was so stupid....
So I went to the game with Rachel..like she asked....I'm still not sure if she really wanted me there.....
I hate that feeling when you miss someone...and you feel like they don't miss you the same..like it's false? You know..that feeling of being so desperate and knowing they dont miss you as much , makes it so much worse...I feel that a lot..I hate feeling that way
I drove home friday night..and i just wanted rachel with me...and even told my mom that, and she said the usaul..so i went home and got straight into bed....missing rachel every second.(Uhm..i noticed in every sentence..its about rachel....i guess i get frustrated cause I'm not filling up her journal page..not that I'm mad about that...I love her so much I want my journal to be all her..) Saturday....wow i had to take tiffany to work...and Then mom and dad went shopping and get like stupid appilances.....and dad told mom he had seen my hickie ( it was like {--} this big..and he probably saw where my neck was broken out and thought that was a hickie...but whatever I dont even care...thats I do is care.....Anyway....I was driving home last night and a big raccoon ran out across the road and I could have almost wrecked....that would have been really sad....And today....I really didnt feel like talking to anyone..so i didnt..I just waited for Rachel to call..or get on or something...but of course you know she didnt...Busy..yeah i guess...Anyway..I made a myspace...ONLY cause i want to see other people's pictures....I was looking through the different people...and I was like "I wonder if it bothers girl's who's girlfriend's say there a lesbian....but tell people they're Bisexual"....and i was like...yep I'm sure it does...anyway lets freaking move on.....I got to talk to jess for a little bit today {_____} <--that much.....and she fixed my myspace...and tomorrow..I'll be going to get my homecoming stuff.....I had hoped rach would have been able to come...but 2 things 1)her mom 2) shes probably got company.....-sigh- Anyway.....I'ev had the worse headache all weekend.....and it's made my mood the same i guess...either way..I'm just not even in a good mood..and I want to sleep forever...-hmmp- I don't even wanna be sad..I hate it. :(...I really should spend time with my friends...but i just miss rachel the whole fucking time...so it doesnt make anything better.....Niether has this entry...so it ends.