If money is the root of all evil, please, call me the devil incarnate. But damn you all, doesn't the end justify the means? If the way I can make money is the way to start my life, why aren't you alright with letting me do it? It doesn't affect you, you close-minded...poor people!

This could be bad. Very very bad. What am I supposed to do with ( Read more... )

Prince Charming is overrated. Love is what you find when the person who understands you most comes closer.

Peace.

Desicions made. Obstacles anticipated, plans set up to avoid and overcome them.

I want my life to start. As soon as possible. Now.

Tomorrow's agenda: Job-searches and roommate discussions.

Michael, my parents think we're getting married. Good job.

Peace.

I'm in love with two men.

One, I know, almost better than I know myself. I know his secrets and his fantasies, his triumphs and failings. I know his past and his present, and I look forward to his future. I know his aspirations, the few he has, both the practical and the impossible. I know what he wants, I know what he dreads.

I know the way he ( Read more... )

Was it you who spoke first? I don't remember. I can't forget, though, what was said once it started.

Ah, the human heart. I won't try to understand its logic, or the things it drives a person to do.

The last few days have brought none of the clarity I was so desperately seeking. I only seem to have more worries and fears piled up. All of these ( Read more... )

The past four days have taken a lot out of me. It's time for some major life decisions I'm not sure I'm ready to make, so I'm sitting here, holed up in my apartment, saving what needs to be done for another sunrise. I guess I'm half hoping some of these things just sort themselves out. This is why I hesitate-Cowardice.

I'm back from Kentucky. I ( Read more... )

I just watched From Justin to Kelly...I feel violated. And sick.

Michael, we'll have the "time" debate when I get there on Wednesday. I miss you. This should be a fun visit.

He says "I love you." I respond: "See you later."

God, I'm doomed...And really stupid.

Buena suerte.

Peace.

To continue with a conversation I've been having for what seems like a week now...

I hate the concept of time. Time, in and of itself, is so intangible, yet it is completely daunting, and, admittedly or not, we are all afraid of it. It bothers me. Simply put, it irritates me that, other than being victim to something beautiful like fate, we are all ( Read more... )

The movie "Hitch" is kind of cute. Go see it.

The diamond fell out of my nose ring and I look like an idiot. Wonderful.

Today was a BEAUTIFUL day. And I say that with the most sarcasm and bitterness possible. I am sick, and have been for a very long time. What I thought was a cold turned into a diagnosis of mono, which is now being "reconsidered" ( Read more... )

Tonight at work, I was positive someone was going to end up naked and rolling around on the ugly rose-colored carpet. Unfortunately, no matter which way I looked, this floorbound fornication was not going to include lonely little me. Alas, I cannot be a part of every superfluous orgy that happens around me. Others have to get theirs, I suppose.

I'm ( Read more... )