GAH right now.. kids are killing me.

[soccerhunny14]

ok. so i just wrote this insanely long entry.. pouring out my emotions because today is a very awful day.. then the kids I'm babysitting hit delete. sweet. I'm really about to crack.. I already feel like shit, these kids are acting terribly and I just really can't deal with everything emotionally right now. The reason today is a very emotional day

Comments

[crazyblonde223]

Jess, I think since this has happened twice now Jerod may not be in it as much as you are. And at this point, where you've been together for so so long, you might need to consider the possibility of accepting that you have a broken heart and for your own health, sanity, and future, maybe giving up on Jerod is the best idea.

[lady_bonaparte]

I really agree with Kara. I know you love Jerod and you want more than anything to be with him, but you might find that you after all is said and done you are happier living without the anxiety of wondering whether he is going to leave you again- I don't mean that to be harsh, but it just doesn't seem like a way to live, especially for someone as wonderful as you, who deserves all the happiness in the world.

When I saw your away message I hoped so much that you were having a great, fun, day with the kids and they were rejuvinating you and making you feel better- If I were there I'd yell at them for not being more understanding!! But really, I wanted to IM you and tell you how much I love you- really- since fourth grade when I gave you my highlighters!! : ) And I'm always here if you need anything (we can have advisory throwbacks).

[crazyblonde223]

Roxanne said everything I wanted to say, only a lot better :-) Another thing to think about is that Jerod really has been your first significant relationship. Before you are in this for the long haul, I think you should see what else is out there, and be in another significant relationship because I feel like its hard to know how perfect someone is for you, and how much you love them without any basis for comparison. I know personally, with each significant relationship I've been in, I felt like that person was "the one" and was perfect for me, and sure enough it ended and I moved on and found someone who was better for me

[nickygirlxox]

Jess, I have to agree with kara and roxanne on this one. Honestly, I'm not happy with the fact that just because Jerod chose to call that you are perfectly content going back into the same sort of unsure thing that happened the first time...let the phone ring. He said he needed time to figure things out. On your end, I think you should let him do that...I'm not sure he can do that if you guys continue to talk all the time. I am sure it hurts you too to talk to him, because you guys aren't together anymore. I feel like Jerod is giving you hope, when he's not even really sure about what he wants to do with the situation and it's confusing/upsetting you more than you need to be

[amiker]

I won't hash it all out here because these other ladies have offered wonderful words of advice... but I'm sure we all know I'm the QUEEN of broken hearts (no really.. it's my title and you can't have it) so you know how to reach me for anything if you need...