Comments | socermagic: what im afraid of.

socermagic

what im afraid of.

Jul 23, 2007 18:40

I am afraid of what recognizing and accepting my truth would mean for me. Because if I did really acknowledge it, I'm afraid of the consequences.

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Details! Details! luke123 July 24 2007, 01:40:59 UTC

what is your truth? what are the consequences?

Re: Details! Details! socermagic July 24 2007, 13:07:56 UTC

now luke... if I told YOU... then I would have to face the music, now wouldn't I.

Then again, repressing things doesn't work all that well either.

So I can tell you this-- I have recognized a pattern in myself in the past few weeks, mostly its a story of melancholy, and I am trying to search for its source, so that I can be happy again. Perhaps it is just all this school nonsense, but perhaps its more than that. What I do know is that I am persistently dissatisfied, which is in direct contradiction with my desire to be fulfilled.

Re: Details! Details! luke123 July 24 2007, 17:42:57 UTC

Yeah, there's plenty to be dissatisfied with in Cambridge. I can tell you that I had a similiar experience (from what you've told me, and you're a little vaguer so I'm gussing here) and I actually ruled out Harvard as the source. Near the end, I thought it might not even be anything in Boston, it may have just been me. But in the end, it was definitely Boston because when I came back things immediately started getting better ( ... )

Re: Details! Details! socermagic July 28 2007, 20:43:12 UTC

AWW luke :) thanks. I guess I never thought of it that way. Your words are so very kind though, and remind me of how lucky i am to have you as a friend.

godotwashere July 27 2007, 02:10:22 UTC

aw, i've been there.

socermagic July 28 2007, 20:42:40 UTC

Holly! I have missed you, friend. And it is tough "being there," eh?