Comments | societalenigma: I should be happier

societalenigma

I should be happier

Mar 06, 2007 09:51

Given all the things I have accomplished and the opportunities in muisc presented for me, I should be happier. Yet, I'm discontent because it should have been easier and I should have done better. It's an endless struggle, when I get what I want I'm still not satisfied because I'm not ready yet for that which I seek; continuously the lack of ( Read more... )

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Of Perfection nanonickle March 6 2007, 22:22:54 UTC

Choose to be happy for yourself. You deserve it after making it through the mess of UW's Music Department, and know now that you've gone through this shiznit you have the experience to deal with more of the same tasks and more complicated tasks.

of Perfection and Failure societalenigma March 6 2007, 22:54:50 UTC

It's not jus the UW music department, though its part. I'm mad at myself for hurting my trombone, this time is perminent damage...My trombone still plays great, but I don't know if it rings as much as when I first bought it. I realize that I'm going to have to buy a new one (or atleast part) later. okay, that's explained... While Jim Cutler asked me to play in his band, I didn't feel like I deserved it and I didn't do as good as I wanted to while playing in the first band (I didn't fuck up anything horredously but still...). I want to work on my concentration during performances.

violinrouge7 March 7 2007, 00:17:33 UTC

I'm very sorry that you have had to undergo traumatic brain injury, and I know this has greatly affected your life. But, there will have to a time when you stop blaming everything on it, and stop focusing on it so much. I know I'm not one to talk because I have never experienced it, but it seems that you need to deal with what happened because it has already happened ( ... )

My philosophy societalenigma March 9 2007, 19:36:55 UTC

I'm not always down or whatever. If I didn't put preasure of myself to do well, then my aptitude or desire to succeed in fullest would not be the same. It's true I should be quick on the uptake with everything, get super serious about my paths , push to be ahead or least be on the ball with things. But Sarra, you need to understand it's my fear of failure that drives a lot of the time. I'm working on being more virtuous, until I am then I have to see the threat of hell and be critical of myself... I should be confident and assertive. Confidence coms with security about how your path is the only way for you... I like to keep my mind open ( ... )