i love it when people freak out about things that arent even happening and dont return any of your attempts at contact.

other than that, life is just grand. same old, same old...work, school. ive been trying to get out and do things with people more though, and thats fun. except i waste too much gas. out.

what a long fucking weekend. i drove 350 miles in a day in a half. i got so fucking sunburnt. i cant even lay down in my bed because it fucking stings. now i have 4 term papers and an exam to study for, and no time to do it in. goddamn procrastination. serves me right i suppose.

so im really excited that i got the third and fourth off, and i didnt even ask for them off. that means i get to camping with the boys!!! it should be fun, cause i need to get out of this town for a bit.

today was/is a good day. me, tina, and dee went to the mall and shopped all our problems away. it was wonderful, we got all dressed up and walked around for 4 hours. and i got the best deals! everytime i went to pay for something at the register, it was cheaper than expected. i got a few really new cute and sexy low cut shirts! now im about to go ( Read more... )

i am going to die alone. nothing feels worse than a broken heart, and he doesnt seem to care about this. crashing my car into a cliff would feel better than this.

today was not a good day. kyle doesnt want to be with me probably cause i am no fun. i dont know how to have fun. i dont have any friends because i dont "have fun". i have no place to go but work, school, and here where all i do is cry. i wish it was easier, but its not. i guess it will always be like this, and i will always be alone because i dont ( Read more... )

i dont think i have felt this alone in a while. its kinda weird. its not like much has changed or anything, but i have nothing to do. no committments. no plans. just to sit here bored all day. bleh.

i bought a laptop. it was kind of scary taking $1400 in cash and handing it over. but hey, ive wanted one for a while, and what the fuck else am i gonna buy? anyways...its pretty fucking cool, except getting used to this keyboard is really weird. ok, im fucking drained... peace.

so ky said he doesnt want to go to prom with me.....
and my mom really wants me to go...
shes even offered to buy my dress/shoes/half my ticket/and be my personal limo driver.
but is it really worth it to go, and end up feeling like shit all nite because youre the only person there without a date?

its officially over. let the downward spiral that is my life begin. again.