i cant cry. i kinda expected this. it will hit me while im with him.. i know it. i wish i h ad the strength toask him for a month. whydid dana have to be right. why do i make it so impossible to find happiness. how can we bounce back fromthis. i mean iknow we canbut i dont want to. this shoud be the most amazing feeling and i cant evenenjoy it. ( Read more... )

 just think of this and me ( Read more... )

 i dont understand why i keepo finding myself in this place. why can i never be content. alweays wanting more. always wanting what i cant have. always wanting what is so far out of my reach. how do i keep managing to do this to myself. why am i so fucking miserable. what the fucl. things feel so different. they are different.. so wehy then. why ( Read more... )

i wish i could give him the strength i have. i wish i could show him how much easier it would be. i dont know what to do. i dont like living like this. i actually hate it. its exhausting. but what then? is it better to live a life with him even if there is bullshit and that fucking asshole who keeps proving me right? i dont want to wait for him to ( Read more... )

 i dont get myself. i dont get how i feel. i dont understand why i do what i do. the other day was such a good day. it was something ill always look back on fondly. this past week has been good for the most part. weird, but i have been enjoying it. im scared for tomorrow. i really dont think hes going to jail but idk i just cant stop thinking about ( Read more... )

the only thing i regret about 
you and me is that i got you
too drunk to  r e m e m b e r
how good of a fuck i was <3

i don't know what you see in him..
                       " i see what everyone else doesn't "

the starting line "saddest girl story"

So it's safe to say that we've been here before;
Heart torn out, down for the count 
and still come back for more.
This lesson is learned too well.
Though, only unlearned by the 
time your wounds have healed.
Have you had enough?
I guess not because your lips are stuck to his.
It's time to say enough is enough, 
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sometimes i find it eery how right on cue i am. i mean it has its downfalls, but i really am always right. my suspicions ring true, and my feelings or well thoughts on the matter seem to be so exact. listening to him talk and just tell me things about whats been going on, it just shows me how right i am. LOVE IS NOT ENOUGH!!. i know this will ring ( Read more... )

regina spektor "samson"

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth
I have to go, I have to go
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
He ate a slice of wonder bread and went right back to bed
And history books forgot about us and the bible ( Read more... )