hahahaahaha. kyle is smart ( Read more... )

a sweet serenity of desire....the desire of a kiss so sweet...and passionate...to make your heart melt...to be lip to lip with the one you cherish most..to be hip to hip with your baby as you cuddle close..it's something i want so..it's a thought of somehting i can't let go...being lovers for the night..hiding under covers, but not of fright..a ( Read more... )

sigh.

ignore last post,
i was just fuckingscared.
i think jessis the only one who would know why.

but whatever.

every conversation i have with him is more&more perfect. ksjlfklaj.
stupid distanccce.
but...well, i wont jynx it. so nevermind.

tonight is one of those nights.

i cant stop smiling.

fuck.
no.
ffuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.

i refuse to lose someone right now. fuck. no. god, this isnt fair. i tried so hard, i always try so hard. please let this be okay.

suicide isnt fair, people need to learn that before they go saying stuff to me. this isnt fucking fair.
im going to fall apart if one more.....

ah. just...fuckit.

this is still really getting to me ( Read more... )

grrr and ahh and fuck.

CLICK THE LINK ^^ if it were possible for me to put my feelings about this into words right now, i would. but i cant. ill try tomorrow.

for now,

pray for joshs friends&family, yea? :/

fjgheruyghrhegoireahguireahg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SATURDAY. March 4th. House of Blues, Anaheim. The Academy Is..., Hellogoodbye, Panic! At the Disco, and Acceptance...FOUR OF MY FAVORITE bands...in one place. FJeggmhdsnjkrsgh ( Read more... )

indiana. <3.

my emotions are all weirded out right now....because of some stuff harold said last night, and stuff i talked about with caity this morning. i just don't know...i mean, i trust harold and i trust his promises. i just don't trust my own feelings, and i dunno...i'm scared of hurting myself again ( Read more... )