this is not angst...this is just confusion...im such a fucked up individual. im really excited for blocking tomorrow, god knows why.
chemistry test is making me lose my mind ever so slightly so im watching silly tapes that make me sad and yet happy....it's really lame....oh well...wish me luck :)

zookeeper

i typed such a nice long, happy entry...and it got deleted when i tried to preview it....maybe ill attempt a retype later, but im a tired chicken

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fuck

i hate it when lame, stupid things make you feel lame, stupidly, and incomprehensibly depressed. and it's even worse when you have no one to talk about it with. im a tough cookie, a strange individual, and while we're all strange in one way or another, i often feel that not only does no one really understand me, but most people i surround myself ( Read more... )

damnit...i hate feeling like a typical "hates my parents" teenager...but im SO sick of my mom telling me to lose weight and it reached one of its many all-time lows tonight...i often feel like she has no common sense...youre not losing weight, so im going to unplug your phone, but that's not the real reason...im just mad at you. i dont know. i ( Read more... )

i havent updated in SO long...partly because of my ohsobusy schedule (ha!) and partly because people rarely comment anyway so sometimes i think "what's the point?" oh well. im exhausted, but i love jewish holidays because i have absolutely nothing to do tonight except sit back, relax, and watch pride and prejudice...what a relaxer. i just love ( Read more... )

I feel like a HUGE asshole...and I'm so sorry I've been such a whiny bitch. I'm done and happy, and I like it much better this way. See everyone tomorrow, provided I get through this stack of homework. love to all.

i had stupid bad dreams last night over a stupid subject that will not exit my head no matter how hard i try. oh well. i'm going to go to the store to by bacon and bisquick so we can have a yummy breakfast and then i must attack the homework i have been stupidly avoiding all weekend. what a joyous bank holiday! people saw my house last night... ( Read more... )

So, it turns out that everyone made my birthday perfect, except for me. Thanks to Kelsey, Chris, Blair, Aaron, Carter, Tuckie, DJ, Meg, Katherine (2), Greg, Zack, Phil, David, triple trio, Nathan and Nate and many others for wishing me a Happy one. I got so much good stuff, though I think the cards from Florida and Saddle Shoe were my favorites ( Read more... )

hooray for having so much homework i dont have time to do anything else. if it were interesting i wouldn't mind, but most of it is dumb...i find myself anticipating math and chemistry just because english sucks so much. i just wanted to apologize for being an ass. i keep saying and doing stupid things. they make sense in my head, but they just ( Read more... )

this weekend went by real fast...but it was awesome...i want more like it, though i proabably won't often be able to participate because of work. but i had so much fun. i am excited for my birthday, though i don't really think that i'm doing anything special. it's just exciting for no reason. i am very bad at creating interesting entries. it's ( Read more... )