Rogers City
*sidenote* in my friends page is the entry that got me thinking about this...it is written by my best friend clearsky145.
The awe and appeal of the sterotypical "small town" has always baffled me. Why would anyone want to be in a town that has more cows than people? Well on my short journy through life so far i think that i have found my own true place in the world.
I can remember back in high school loathing this town, wanting to be free of it, and to discover my own identity. See what some people don't understand about a small town is that ones own identity doesn't exist. We are a whole, a group, not individuals. By graduating high school i had surpassed many in this town. By going to college, i would finally be free of the walls that held me tight for years. But in the same aspect, going away to school ripped away a shell. In this tightknit community everyone knows everyone and everyone elses business. Its not the best situation, but a person can't really expect anymore or less.
Going to school was one of the best things of my life, but i also realized that home was truely were the heart is. I think one of the best things that have happened to me is coming home and realizing that this is were i want to stay. I love going downstate for visits, but thats all i want to do is visit. It is truely not the place for me to be. I knew that i wanted to be here. I wanted to see my sisters grow up and be able to do things with them. I wanted to feel safe and secure. I wanted to become committed to something and someone that i love.
I think that i may have found my true calling. I've always wanted to help people and being a dispatcher covers that. I also wanted some excitement. Working in a Sheriffs Department has its exciting moments. And i have the feeling of being safe and secure. My family is near, the Sheriffs Department has become another family to me also. The guys may hassle the shit out of me, but they do it because i'm like the baby sister to them. And they will protect me when and where i need it.
I also belive that i may have found the guy of my dreams. I know its kind of a strech right now, becuase of his situation, but we just connect on a different level than any other guys that i have dated. He may not be the most attractive guy but there is just something about him that drives me crazy. *edit* Some people may not find him to the most attractive, but i think that hes just adorable. Beautiful blue eyes We even have little jokes between us that others don't know about. And we each know each others little quirks that drive the other insane. Mine being that i'm not a big Green Day fan, and anytime that he can find the song...doesn't matter where or when, i get a call telling me to listen. Of course it makes me laugh, but where in the world would i be without laughter. :)
I just don't know what i would do without my friends. I have some friends that i have had since before kindergarten. But i also have friends from school,work and other social events. And i wouldn't trade any of them for the world. We may get into little spiffs and not talk to each other for a few days, but we all know that everything will turn out ok. These are the people that i lean on as my crutch when i need one. As one of my favorite quotes goes..."a good friend will come and bail you out of jail, but a great friend will be in the cell with you, laughing!"
As i sit here and type this, i think of how blessed my life has truely been and how thankful that i have such wonderful people in my life. And that they really do care for me and about me. It is the best feeling the i could ever imagine and i hope that it lasts forever.
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Love always
The awe and appeal of the sterotypical "small town" has always baffled me. Why would anyone want to be in a town that has more cows than people? Well on my short journy through life so far i think that i have found my own true place in the world.
I can remember back in high school loathing this town, wanting to be free of it, and to discover my own identity. See what some people don't understand about a small town is that ones own identity doesn't exist. We are a whole, a group, not individuals. By graduating high school i had surpassed many in this town. By going to college, i would finally be free of the walls that held me tight for years. But in the same aspect, going away to school ripped away a shell. In this tightknit community everyone knows everyone and everyone elses business. Its not the best situation, but a person can't really expect anymore or less.
Going to school was one of the best things of my life, but i also realized that home was truely were the heart is. I think one of the best things that have happened to me is coming home and realizing that this is were i want to stay. I love going downstate for visits, but thats all i want to do is visit. It is truely not the place for me to be. I knew that i wanted to be here. I wanted to see my sisters grow up and be able to do things with them. I wanted to feel safe and secure. I wanted to become committed to something and someone that i love.
I think that i may have found my true calling. I've always wanted to help people and being a dispatcher covers that. I also wanted some excitement. Working in a Sheriffs Department has its exciting moments. And i have the feeling of being safe and secure. My family is near, the Sheriffs Department has become another family to me also. The guys may hassle the shit out of me, but they do it because i'm like the baby sister to them. And they will protect me when and where i need it.
I also belive that i may have found the guy of my dreams. I know its kind of a strech right now, becuase of his situation, but we just connect on a different level than any other guys that i have dated. He may not be the most attractive guy but there is just something about him that drives me crazy. *edit* Some people may not find him to the most attractive, but i think that hes just adorable. Beautiful blue eyes We even have little jokes between us that others don't know about. And we each know each others little quirks that drive the other insane. Mine being that i'm not a big Green Day fan, and anytime that he can find the song...doesn't matter where or when, i get a call telling me to listen. Of course it makes me laugh, but where in the world would i be without laughter. :)
I just don't know what i would do without my friends. I have some friends that i have had since before kindergarten. But i also have friends from school,work and other social events. And i wouldn't trade any of them for the world. We may get into little spiffs and not talk to each other for a few days, but we all know that everything will turn out ok. These are the people that i lean on as my crutch when i need one. As one of my favorite quotes goes..."a good friend will come and bail you out of jail, but a great friend will be in the cell with you, laughing!"
As i sit here and type this, i think of how blessed my life has truely been and how thankful that i have such wonderful people in my life. And that they really do care for me and about me. It is the best feeling the i could ever imagine and i hope that it lasts forever.
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Love always