i'm greatful for the panic attacks, and pain i have experienced.

[sofiecakes]

i see my panic attacks as a reminder. that right now.. deep down i do not want to die yet.
because my panic attacks reinstall so much fear into me.
although the fear might not be genuine.
it reminds me that i am wrong.
sometimes it's too easy to fall back into habbits, at the slightest reminder of what caused you to fall to it in the first place.

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[lovelymouse]

I know how easy it is to fall back into old habits. In my case, I sort of romanticize the past, the bad habits I had. I always need to remind myself or the horrible times I went through, and how I never want to feel that way again. It's just not always easy to remind myself.

[sofiecakes]

yeah i'm lucky to have my panic attacks.. and people to remind me now..
it doesn't make the persons actions that made me this ill okay though.. they can't take credit for THIS the only thing they could've took credit for is if i'd killed myself because of them when it first started.

all we can do is just try to make the best of what happens and see the positive in it, if you need someone to talk to i'm here :)

[lovelymouse]

Thank you hunn =)

[sofiecakes]

x x x :)