Yesterday was 8 months with ashley. It was the greatest feeling to have such a wonderful day with her. It was absolutely blissful. We spent the whole day together doing "stuff". Then we went to eat and then we went to eat pizza. I came home and slept for like an hour. Thats when Ashley called and told me that her mom and brother left and that all ( Read more... )

I got a parking ticket today. A whopping 25 dollars. Doesn't that suck? I hadn't gotten my parking sticker and I came out of class and there it was on my windshield. So I went to get it today. Ashley surprised me by taking the day off of practice and took me to the movies and to eat. I thought that it was extremely sweet of her. It was the best ( Read more... )

I know what you are going through Salem and I just thought that maybe this would help. I wrote this a long time ago and I've posted it here before but I thought that I would just post it again ( Read more... )

Hasn't everyone played with someone's heart? To say that someone doesn't deserve what they get is total bullshit to me. And if the person who left the comment about me not deserving love, if you were so brave as to write that why can't you be brave enough to address me only? Seek after me, and tell me to my face instead of leaving an idiotic ( Read more... )

Love. In my own personal experiences, I have never really experienced love with anyone (with the exception of ashley). I sit here and think to myself. Could it have been that I thought that I knew what love was? And in turn thought to myself that what I was experiencing was love? My subconcious knew that it wasn't, knew that I wasn't experiencing ( Read more... )

Today I went to class at around 8 or 9. I came home at around 11 and went to eat with ashley before she had to go to softball practice at 1:30. God It felt like I haven't spent that much time with her and it hurts. We went from spending every single day together to spending virtually no time together. Its really hard because I love her so much. I ( Read more... )

Okay so there is an extent to loving yourself right? But is there an extent to not love yourself? I mean right now that I am with ashley I can't really say that I love myself but I think now I hold myself in higher reguard than I used to. I mean it used to be to the point where everyday I would avoid looking in the mirror, ashamed of what I saw. ( Read more... )

Well i made it to Utep thank God! I thought that it was going to be so hard to find my classes. NMSU is so much different. There they don't give a fuck what you do. Here its like you're walking on eggshells. Even with the parking permits I was like oh dear! Its cool that everything turned out okay. Im so happy, when I got to my English 1311 class, ( Read more... )

Well lets see. My mom used to tell me all of the time that one of my biggest flaws was that im too nice to everyone. That it allows me to be walked on like a floor mat. I never thought that it was being too nice. I didn't think that a "too nice" exsisted. I was raised with being nice being rewarded and being mean was to be punished. Isn't that a ( Read more... )

I really really can't believe that its already 2005. That means that all of us who graduated 2004 graduated a year ago! Can you believe that? Well New Years was great ashley and I were sad because we weren't going to be able to celebrate new years together because of conflictions. Well she came to my house to wait for me to get ready and then after ( Read more... )