Let's try this again

[softer]

I'm feeling incredibly creatively frustrated. I just keep thinking of the reasoning behind everything, like what this image says or why I would print this or that. I make up stories about my background, to explain why I would be stuck on these sorts of images. I fear that this is a situation of adapt or die. The sky today is dreary and grey.

Comments

[thelivingroom]

what's the deal, yo? your photographs are lovely, dear.

[softer]

i feel like i'm repeating myself; like it's become obvious that i have nothing to say. whine whine, i know. i think about you sometimes; how are you?

[thelivingroom]

yeah, well, as you may have noticed, my photo production has dwindled greatly these past few months, and it's for the same reasons you mentioned.

on paper, i'm doing good, i suppose. in my head i'm not, but i'm sure it's 99% financial. haha

[softer]

I have noticed your shrunken photo production. Whatever happened to that travelling around photographing races? I'm sorry for both of us; I know how much you love photography.

What do you mean by 'on paper'?

hearts and stars of course ha-ha,
m,

[weareinfinite]

marina,
i havent talked [inter.net]corressponded with you in oh so so long.
im going to waste your time saying the same shit everyone else will.
but
i love your pictures.
and i love your words,
{wether or not we ever met in person.
you take pictures as long as you keep seeing in pictures.
thats it,
kate<3

[softer]

It's a stupidly rational feeling--reasonable to the point of fault; I thought we were beyond this, for chrissakes. I suppose the challenge is common to all people caught up in creative fields--you just want to produce produce produce, impeccably, and then the second you're not producing, or not producing as well, you can't help but to feel like completely shit, like nothing you've ever done has been worth anything. I don't know, though. I wasn't so disappointed when I stopped writing as much or as well, probably because I had alternate output interests, but now I'm only interested in feminist theory and injustice and these interests just do not make me feel like a more worthwhile human being. gah.

Kindest,
marina

[upgrowth]

can i call you? i want to talk to you.

jay

[softer]

yes. 505.473.6802

i'm almost never there but if you leave your number i'll call you back.

love.

[softer]

505.473.6821, rather.

[upgrowth]

oh ok sorry

[doteatop]

i like your pictures.